Happy life

Home.... maybe not as sweet

2011-11-25T05:31:00.001-08:00

每一次一个人旅行，都会学到不一样的事。应该是我喜欢坐飞机的原因吧！

这一趟回家，真的感觉成长了不少。应该说，大家都觉得我应该长大了。不再是家里的小孩，不再是那个有资格发小姐脾气的彩丽。

＊不是在emo，只是有一些些的感触＊

1／12／2011

我不再是那天最大的那个，因为那天是我开工的第一天。。。就好像第一次上学，不同的是，那时会有一群人一起，那时的一切都会被原谅。。。原因只有一个：还小。而现在，不可以再犯错，不可以再懵懂。。。因为已经长大了，必须成熟了。。。要被原谅，难上加难。。。

这就是代价吧，出国后很多时候都是自己一个人。原本以为回到家，就可以轻松一些。可是除了不用担心吃之外，其他事还是一个人，而且还更累。回来的第一天，就必须在路上呆上几个钟，就只是因为大家都不想驾车。。。第二天，就从早上驾到晚上。。。都已经累倒眼睛都干掉了，生病了，还是须驾，到底是那门儿的道理！有说过我超讨厌驾车吗？原本开开心心，很难得的假期，现在就充满讨厌的事。。。

可是，也没有选择。。。

因为这是我的责任。。。

因为成长，不能再怨天尤人。。。

因为，所以。。。

不再是女孩，而必须是明白事理的大人。。。

This is the =) you'll get

2011-10-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

Went to Night fest with my parents and friends... It was fun and I totally forget about the shitty exam timetable and the amount of work I have to do for the next few weeks to prepare for exams...

Maybe it's bcz of my dad and mom... It felt like another year end trip, it was awesome! Like in korea, japan...

I'm fully charged to work harder!! Smile like the flower when I'm challenged... Always remember about the ups and downs cz it makes me what I am right now....

Stand still, be tough and be strong... Because the future is always unpredictable...

I'm not gonna regret or be scared whenever I need to face the fact that I've grown up to face more difficult challenges alone....

Just like who we are... We shine even when it is dark and scary... There will always be A light above or behind us, shining with love and warmth =)

Just like this ^^

Spring break celebrated by my all time fav ^^

2011-09-10T00:18:00.000-07:00

YES.... Spring break!!!! No no Emo... Cz it's flower time =D

I've not been blogging or taking pictures for quite a while ><

Saw this hello kitty icon outside the swarovski shop and faster google it once I came home.... AWWWWW, they are having the hello kitty collection for 2011!!! It's been quite a while since june, but I seldom pass by a swarovski shop ><

crystal and hello kitty, my 2 most favorite thing in the world are combining!!!! I know I'm exaggerating...

Kitty lives in London =D "Global Icon"

Check out the pictures...

Hello Kitty Apple

Hello Kitty Bear

Hello Kitty Bow

They even have pens!!! (way too expensive + precious pens)

See! Who would use it!!!

And my fav??!?!?!

Sorry for having so many favs ^^ But They are too cute to resist!!!!

T-T I want!!!!!! Someone kind enough to buy for me?? ~~Just joking...~~

SoOOO, I want to try something new to make my life not so lifeless!! Suggestions?

I know I look funny below... But oh well, this is how I look now and I'm FAT!!!

Week 5

2011-08-24T01:48:00.000-07:00

Week 5 is here.... OMG @@ the horrifying mid sem is coming AGAIN!!!!

I'm so unprepared... So lazy to study while looking at all the assignments...

1116, why are you so tough >< You make me feel SO dumb... so stupid as usual again...

1005, I thought you would relieve my stress.... but you didn't >< I've underestimated u

1001, I want to ignore you... but you may determine whether I'll get a job... ISHHH

1201, no mid sem! I LIKE! but weekly hw =( NO LIKE!!! Cz I dunno how to doooooo...

SIGH SIGH!!!

OKAY... back to the assignments and study later ><

I can't concentrate =(

SOB... sob...

The farewell again...

2011-08-18T03:53:00.000-07:00

Oh oh.... My blog is practically dead for quite a while =) Didn't even post anything about my trip back to kl... OH WELL, nothing much but ENJOYED LOTS and TONS!!! Class started a while ago, and much tougher ><

And the farewell... This time is JIA, the last among us to go to different countries (Hmm, maybe sue will be the last)

Dedicate this to you darling ^^

You were always the one with all the lame jokes and laughters among us... whenever you go, everything seems so happy and fun... Nothing beats talking to you when i feel down...

I recall those days when we talk so long on the phone until I have to hide the phone... Those days when we play and eat together... Can't forget your happy face when you eat my mom's food... haha!!! I remember the "special" foods you eat for lunch ^^ AND AND!!! your K-pop fever ==""

Memories........

we are really everywhere now, you going to us, vwrene in russia, me in australia, cecilia in singapore, chennie in m'sia and sue (undecided as usual, haha! no offence)... does this means we will have our hearts at every part of the world? There will always be someone in somewhere missing us?? I presume... cz I am everyday...

I've always thought of what to say when the day comes, The day when we are going onto separate paths... nearer to our future... And when the day comes, I can only look forward to the gatherings...

I'm sorry for not being there now to wish you good luck and all the best... not even a hug... i'm sorry for not giving you a farewell present.... I feel like a terrible friend... yes, I am when compared to you =)

Promise me, come back during the breaks... My heart dropped when you say you wouldn't... pleassseeee..... cz we must gather with you... for the gossips?!?! HAHA!!!

Living away from family is different... Might be tough... Might be nice... But stay strong!! Stay happy... and stay you.... cz like you always say, we'll be here for you...

Even though I hate saying this, it's really time to say goodbye... All the memories will be kept in our hearts... All of them... Sweet and bitter...

LOVE YA!!! MISS YA!!! And have a safe flight =D

最后一天

2011-05-20T10:40:00.000-07:00

好久没像这三天一样了！买日常用品不需自己拿。。。回到家就有人讲话。。。笑！投诉！因为他是一定不会不耐烦。。。恩，是哥哥。。。真的很想很想他。。。几个月没跟他玩，打架。这几天好像过的特别快！！

来这里那么久了，也没有天天都出去过。。。每天都去CIVIC。。。如果昨天也能去看戏，那会是多棒！可惜戏票太贵了 T⋯T

Without noticing, the fun has came to an end... Without knowing it, I'm feeling the consequences of not studying in 3 days. Finals is coming, finals is here.... But listening at my brother's snore for the one last time really make me miss m'sia LOTS... LIKE tons!

Yesterday was fun, I said everything to my brother.... All my complains and comments oh! and embarrassment that I had in my heart for 5 months was spit out to my brother... Like what I normally do in kl!

I was able to walk home without using my freezing cold hands to carry bags of heavy stuffs... My hands was warm because of my brother's pocket...

I realize I don't feel as cold even it's a cold night with strong winds because I have my brother to block the wind... Carry heavy stuffs... I wouldn't need to bother about what people think of me for the last 3 days... I could easily let go the stress that finals is arriving and I'm definitely unprepared by chatting with my brother...

I'll need to start mugging...

Till now..

Every night...

I want to go back so badly....

Be in the warmth of people once again....

Only with those that understands me...........

Not those that treat me like rubbish here........

I was a person with pride...

I was a different person....

i was a much better person...

HAPPY mother's DAY

2011-05-07T17:35:00.000-07:00

Just a random pic!

Will my dreams be able to stand proudly here without sinking?

To cure ______

2011-04-17T18:31:00.000-07:00

Spot yourself!

Let me do this one more time

2011-04-17T12:09:00.000-07:00

Currently in sydney hotel room alone studying >< Pathetic huh!

Somehow, this trip means a lot to me.... it's been long since I see so many high rises building... it's been long since I can wake up anytime I want and still get to get hot water bath... It's been long since I stay in a place which can clearly see the moon, sunset and the lights.... Do they miss me? I miss them lots!

For the past few months, I've slowly gotten used to being alone. Immune to all the other stuffs... discrimination... being ignored was like a usual daily routine... starting to dislike going out with other people to avoid issues is starting to become a very common thing... BAD THING!

Why did I realise? Cz I realised I forget how to answer my parents in a comfortable way... I tend to think a lot before answering and end up not doing so =( Guess this is the process of growing up...

Met my childhood aka brother yesterday and it felt like my brother is here again! Even though I really felt weird >< but it was like all the memories and fun i had with my brother came back at once.... Nothing better than this feeling... All the fighting and quarreling... All the playing and having fun moments... It was filled with all the homework and assignment stress here...

My mom said:" U changed! Last time u were so anxious and worried about getting good grades but now u became more lazy."

What can I do, it's not like in kc or ausmat anymore... Will it ever be the same?

I think thats why I like to look at the moon so much... That's something that is soft and delicate... and will not change forever...

Happy birthday Esther

2011-03-23T03:37:00.000-07:00

23/3/2011 --> Currently working on my math assignment

Now, it's 9.18pm here. Still in time to wish esther happy birthday!

Suddenly feel like writing this after knowing esther, amanda and edy are celebrating. With anyone else? I don't know. Somehow, I feel left out.

To Esther,

You are really an amazing friend. Till now, we have only known each other for 1 year n 2 months. However, I can tell you every single thing... all the secrets and tears that I have. I never thought to meet such good friends as you and amanda when I 1st started Ausmat!!!

WE are such weird girls, dun really shop... dun take pictures together... Hmm... I wonder y?!

You two are just TOO special to me =D

You are officially 19 now >< (No worries, still young)

I recall that time when we r not that close YET, and celebrated your b'day in Sunway's cafeteria. We are so shy till dun dare to sing b'day song to u.... OMG@@

"Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to Esther! Happy birthday to you!"

Please imagine my voice ^^ I know u could unless u have forgotten my voice =O

Sorry for not being able to be there.... Sorry for not being able to sing happy b'day song even for once... Sorry for not being able to give u any surprises like what u ppl gave me on my b'day...

Stay pretty.... Stay sweet... All the best in monash!

Hugs n kisses! Miss ya tons tons tons!!

5.28am

2011-03-07T11:18:00.000-08:00

HI peeps ...

After many pre-departure and farewell posts, I'm officially here for 1 month! WOW! Shocking news.... I still feel like a newbie.

"Well, how's life?"

That is the question I encounter the most for this month. MORE N MORE!!!! Life is "so-far-so-good". Living alone is not an easy task, not having my family during my studies is tough. I miss the family outing every weekends T-T

~Year end trip

How I wish the korea trip never ended!

~Movie night

~Karaoke night

~SHopping

YES! Family is the UBER important support I have for my entire life.

Everything is getting tougher and tougher. From syllabus -- adapting -- friendship -- my personality. Learning how to remind myself [孤独却不孤单], learning how to survive by studying alone in the library, no more people like esther and amanda in the same course who I can study with in the library for the whole day. Walking alone at night from library is.... erm.... q-u-i-e-t... Maybe i'm used to being in a quiet place at night. STARS in Canberra at night is too pretty to feel lonely! Not lonely anymore!

Luckily I still have yen chi n her friends! Too bad they r all in CBE =(

ps to them: Sorry that I could not join ur outings very weekends. I feel awkward as my weekends for my entire life is with my family >< Will try to change... slowly... but plz give me time n don't be annoyed!

Syllabus is seriously killing me! TOUGH! Maybe IF Mr. Eric taught us properly last year.... IFFssss @@ I promise myself no more regrets, no more IFs! The consequences are hitting me hard.... Not only once, but everytime I go to lecture.... I feel like a dummy! Here, everyone is so hardworking n smart!

Pressure pressure ~~

Talking about living alone... Well, pictures of the room is in fb...

And this is me in the room!

Comments about the room: it's shockingly nice =D have tv ==" just I need to clean and cook by myself >< But it's small.... Can't say it's cozy cz nothing beats my own room in kl!

Friends are getting nearer to reality. Acting like adults, only care for their own benefits! Reminding me Uni is all about real life... No more fantasy.... For the first time, I couldn't find someone new that I'm comfortable with in the same course in a month. ~~Sometimes...~~ Is EVERY NIGHT! I wonder if I study engineering in monash, will my life be easier? At least I have Amanda =P

Missing everyone...

Truly missing the genuine smile

以往的一切，原来只会发生在理想世界...

Is everyone alone here?

Is there someone doing the exact same course and tutes with me?

Nothing is perfect;
No one is perfect....

Including life.

Including me.

Pre departure check | 7 days

2011-01-28T00:02:00.000-08:00

7 days more... exactly a week... I'm leaving the place I stayed ~ played ~ studied for 18 years!

What do i wanna do for the last few days?!?!

=> Enjoy my room

=> Enjoy my cozy bed that is surrounded by lots of toys

=> Enjoy home (mom) cook food

=> Enjoy AIRR-CONN

=> Enjoy unlimited internet at home

=> Enjoy watching tv!!! (I'll miss ASTRO)

=> Enjoy watching drama in koko's laptop.... (secretly)

SOunds like I'm gonna spend every single day AT HOME S~W~E~E~T HOME =D

MOST IMPORTANTLY, enjoy tomorrow's outing with darlings!!!

Salute TO the brand N-E-W life!

Unlucky days...

2011-01-25T02:24:00.000-08:00

When will my unlucky days pass??

From the point I receive my SPM, all my luck left me? Unlucky THings just doesn't stop happening to me.

1. Of all the scholarships I applied and went for interview, (SC, JPA, maxis...) not even one I get.

2. Getting a terrible lecturer for my MAS, resulting in terrible ATAR! Not even eligible to apply for any scholarship in ANU. SO, don't talk about interview! Expensive daughter -- I AM!

3. UCAS application to Manchester, they just don't understand how WACE works! Give me funny funny entry requirements. Maybe it's better, giving me no hope.

4. (The Sudden Luck) Cambridge called me for interview and entry test.

*** OF CZ, it doesn't even last for a week**

5. FAILED CAMBRIDGE APPLICATION.

** Forget about UK, thought concentrate on Aus***

6. Because of my terrible ATAR, din get my dream course in ANU. Luckily get entrance in another course. I know I told people maybe I am more towards Science, but do I have the choice? Did I say I hate Engineering?? never

7. Visa Application -- Year of Birth WRONG!!! Why am I always 1991?? Why am I always ONE year OLDER? After all the hassle, e-mail tons of people... At last correct...

8. Visa Application -- Just to certify my passport, but the lawyer used a bm stamp!!!

9. Accommodation -- Going on the 4/2/2011, applied during September 2010! Now they tell me I need to wait for another week?? So, I AM gonna sleep on the road of Canberra....

Really, I wonder.... Where are all my luck?!?!? Or is my hope too high?!?! The disappointment I get is just heart breaking.... Nothing is right!

Is Australia the place I should be for my further education? IS ANU my destiny?

船到桥头自然直

真的吗？？

到底我是不是决定错了？这一切，是在告诉我。。。以后的路，会有更多的痛苦和失望吗？还是，我太看得起自己。。。到头来，我也不可能算是聪明。。。

I can't stand all the disappointment anymore.

Independent, not so....

The moment of legal

2011-01-05T07:08:00.000-08:00

Believe me, this post is left in draft for very long. Since no one reads my blog (due to the hungriness of my chat box)... SOB SOB!!!

DUN CARE!!! This will be about my big day...

THE STORY STARTS now ^^

Okay... A few days be4 1st dec, lotsa things going on... Stuck with house chores bcz mom fell ill. Still ill though, hate it when my parents are sick as i will always think of life without them.... *cry*

However, I'm SURPRISE TILL THE MAX THAT DAY!!! ~~(makes me think of maximus from rapunzel)~~

Surprise no.1!

Wake up in the morning by my mom (my alarm hv absolutely no power to wake me up since wace) to go mid valley. Hmm... Notice something weird.

mom emphasized on must wear nice nice A LOT

mom non stop going in and out of the house

dad dun let me to answer the telecom

"ding dong" czl, go open the door! it's for u!

ppeeeeeeeepppppppppppppppp.....................

WAS I DREAMING?!?!?!?!?!?

They r outside the door!!! Trying to lit the candle outside the door.

OMG@@ It's been my wish since young to have my friends be outside the door on my b'day. Maybe it's bcz my b'day is on a holiday and I stay in a condo since young! After that, went to mid valley in my car >< it was quite dangerous and scary!! 1st time fetching my friends around. I seriously hate the feeling of carrying someone's life on my hands and on my decisions. ~~Yes, that's why i decided not to be a doctor ^^~~

To Han qi, Esther & Amanda:

Dun think u ppl will see this but thanks a lot for making this surprise for me. It really means a lot even though we r only friends for a year. A lil worried u will start to hate me when u know me longer?!?! haha!! All the best to 3 of u.... Be a good engineer/pharmacist! I will always remember those days when we suffer from the 2 presentations. Especially u han qi, guess u will be thankful not having to be in the same uni as me? =D

From amanda darling

Surprise No.2 !

After coming back from mid valley, I was seriously extremly exhausted! Then mom rush me to change for dinner. Didn't expect anything special cz I normally spend my b'day night with my beloved family. In the car, recalling everything I'd done for the whole 2010 -- recall all the memories made in sunway -- recall those days in kc. A lil emo cz I dun get to meet my kc buddies on my b'day so look sad i think. But I was not sad at all k??

Reached! TADA!!!!

HUH!?!?!

O.O (I'm sure thats my expression!)

They appeared! really "appeared" like those fairy godmother!!

Just when I'm thinking about my b'day during SPM, how i spend my b'day in school for the 1st time and missing that tons!! POP!! Jia & evelyn suddenly pop out from the dessert bar!! HAHA!!! not exaggerating k~~ I didn't know how to react but just HUGGGSSSSSS. I know i like to hug a lot! muakx

To Jia, Sue, Evelyn & Kanae:

I'm super touched + proud to have you darlings by my side for so many years. I know sometimes I have really bad temper, but u ppl bear with it! I dunno how to express my feelings even till now.... exactly one month later. I will always miss u ppl!!!! ^^

Presents time!!!

From Kanae (kitty!!!)

From Sue (I love ur card!!)

From evelyn (i feel pain when i need to press her eyes ><)

From Jia!! muakx till the max!!

From my aunt

From my mom (U R THE BEST!!! U KNOW WAT I WISHED EVERY YR)

From my cousin

Granny

DADDY!!! (YES, CAMMIE)

New phone by my broooooother!!!!

To everyone who love me and cared for me for so many years:

I have never been a person with good character and that is what u ppl change me bit by bit throughout the years. Having my wishes come true is like a fairy tale to me. I will hold on to all the surprises and hopes! I will definitely be a better person... Be more patience...

I promise, not to let anyone down!

Love,

Zhai Li

Occupation - Daddy's date for a day

2010-12-11T07:48:00.000-08:00

My mom's old classmates came to kl from Teluk Intan so it's time for a day out with daddy again! YAY!!! So long since 2 of us went out. Cz be4 he retire, I always go down to singapore every year to hang out with him. Just like my mom and bro having a "date"! Family tradition =) Maybe bcz bro and I are still unwanted! haha ><

OKay, 1st event of the day.....

Bread...

Went for Italian, The Press Room.

Dad says:"Come, lets do some interview!!" (=="" he and his lameness)

My brother is also becoming super ==""

So he had "interview" with brother... And he's like, come take more pictures with ur new camera!!! Oh, will update u ppl about my new camera (btw no one know I update blog)

ME?!?! Yummy?!?! =O

ordered soup, starters, pasta and pizza... Usual italian food! And as usual, I cannot understand the menu. OPPS! dad n bro say I'm not lady like too... super common comments received. IGNORE ME! Food is awesome...

Guys of the hse

2nd event, dinner with DAD in Shangri-la ==> ZIPANGU

we have 50% if two person go to shang to eat! So, kinda usual spot for our family. Thanks to my mom's card! We always say she has shares there (another family joke)

Japanese this time... Was testing my cammie in the low light environment. The restaurant is so European, even the price. But 50%, what do u want! Love the low light, yellow lights + garden-ish environment! So romantic XD

Pictures

Photos

And done for the day!

YES!!! I'm daddy's girl

(plz be jealous! haha... jk jk!)

Life after wace | The most unforgettable night

2010-11-20T00:17:00.000-08:00

Awards + Graduation night 2010

After months of studying, burying ourselves in the sea of books... At last it's the time to officially say goodbye to everyone, to AUSMAT!!!

Yup, talking bout prom!!! It's definitely the most unforgettable night for me cz i've never get a chance to get a prize on academic on stage before!!! Too bad I'm alone throughout the prize giving ceremony, disappointed cz no pictures, no one accompany me up stage + getting an award in a subject without jpa student was kinda embarrassed!! But still super shocked when I saw my name there =D Hope there'll be someone felling proud to know me?? Especially Mr. Eric... HAIH!!! Stop the sad mood =="" Move on!!

It started with... the hair of cz!!! 1st time having my hair curled and i miss the spray gel smell... It's like hz5 again ^^

nice??

Next the dress... From my mom, didn't want to wear this cz it's WAY TOO expensive and i'll be worried to dirty it... BUT!!! must be pretty right... so... not sure i look pretty tht night due to my OH-SO-WEIRD post exam syndrome. WAT's THT? Just tht my dark eye circles will oni appear after exams... When I slept A lot after all the stress... Weird huh?!?!

OK. Dress - mom's... Shawl - mom's... Hair - my fav stylist ever... Bag - present from my dad when i was young... Make up - me!!! accessories - ALL MINE!!! with my b'day pressie by mua mom!!!

nice nice?? now it's back to the box and gonna get it on my b'day!! YAY!!!

Din bring my camera cz no more battery T^T but thank god amanda and esther have!! THE best besties in sunway!!!

THE BIG HUG!!!

With the pretty & popular darlings of the night @@

Just check out fb for more pictures!!!

Reach home at around 1am and I couldn't sleep at all!!! The most terrible thing to do... missing everyone, shedding tears reading wat Esther & amanda wrote... missing all the lecturers... sob sob... sleeping with tears at 4am....

Life continues!! Move on and back to the normal looking me =)

Life after wace | movie session

2010-11-19T23:25:00.000-08:00

life after wace has evolved from looking forward -- excited -- tv -- sleep -- eat -- shopping -- madly EMPTY!!!

HAHA!!! I'm not grumbling (oh ya, I am). aherm, i literally spent 3 days in a row in mid valley doing nothing but shopping and movie. DUN misunderstand, I just bought a pair of shoes k...

movie 1: Unstoppable

It was nice cz the ending is kinda expected. As usual, watching movie with my bro, he will literally tell u the summary of the story be4 u can stop him. HAIH!!! But I would say I won't regret watching this. Reason 1, I never shouted in other movies be4 (was too excited when chris pine fell). Reason 2, had a SERIOUS "argument" between the science (dad n I) and the arts (mom n bro)... HAHA!!! Which is something very normal in my family ^^

movie 2: Hachiko

AN AWESOME MOVIE!!!!! wanted to watch this for super long edi but my family oni likes to watch war movie or something like that. NOT romantic at all, hmmph!! So since going out with esther today, we watched TODAY!!! It was like awww.... so sweet.... so touching.... for the whole time. ALMOST cried but too many ppl edi, a bit paiseh. The girl behind me... "sob sob" how i wish i have a puppy like tht >< commitment of staying in a condo... and i thought it's a jap movie but it came up as an ENGLISH movie!! woohoo!!! haha...

see!! so cute ^^

movie 3: Harry Potter

Saying the truth, I've never been so bored in a movie before >< maybe it's bcz i know it'll somehow end in the middle... Dun hv the excitement anymore... But bro wanna watch Emma Watson! She's gorgeous... Absolutely pretty!! OMG @@ I sound like a lesbian... haha! Especially in the burberry ad!!! WOOHOO!!! =D

OK!! done with this post!!! next will be the awards night and outing with ESTHER!!!

YAY!!!

feel so stupid to put my pic after emma watson

T-T *sob sob*

ciaoz!!! muakx

I'm done! It's over...

2010-11-10T00:32:00.000-08:00

10/11/2010

12.30 pm

*******************

It's the end of the hectic 11 months!

*********************

Was looking forward to this since I 1st started ausmat. From future tense to present tense and later a past tense... Learned so much from this. YES, I say I don't miss sunway cz there are too many nightmare. BUT I do miss my classmates a lot...

Compared to my kc life, I did not spend as long in sunway of course. But every weekday staying in college for at least 5 hours is something different. I have never "visited" the kc library. But I became the frequent user in sunway library (more to come next time)...

All the experience, I've learnt more than what I expected. Coming out from the isolated "kc" shell I should say was a tough thing to do at first! Just staying with friends helped me a lot. I learned not to expect so much, how to accept failure, how to face people with absolutely different personality... All the assignments, projects, complains and tears will be something for us to treasure. Recall our 1st presentation -- forum till the last presentation -- powerpoint. All the nightmares, and not sleeping days will continue in a few months time in uni...

BUT for a start, I believe we are the best!!

This is for someone really special, he won't see this... Never thought my last day of college will end like this, knowing that u r leaving somehow make me feel really sad. It is a very big price to pay. Not to say u r not good but one mistake like this will kill u. I dunno whether u are running away from us, I do feel that way. You did make me feel angry sometimes, but looking back at it now. Guess I owe you a very big "SORRY"... Really sorry... Will pray for you everyday from now onwards so u can have a better life after this. Pray hard that u will meet a better student than me, pray hard that u will be a better teacher! Thanks for all the hopes and expectations. Thanks for teaching us so much, believe me... U don't only teach us maths but much more than that. Thanks for giving me the chance to push myself to meet ur expectation... Thanks for teaching me how to be more independent, absolutely no more spoon feed.

Seriously, I will be very disappointed if I don't see u next thursday. It's the indication that pre-u life is over, I really want you to be there. I am not mad at u anymore, hope u get it...

So after all, it's life...

life is like a mountain, big at the base and small at the top. People will help u up and they'll slowly go missing when u get higher and higher. At the top? It's small and u r meant to stay there for a while cz ur next step is walking towards downhill. How success u r is determined only by how long u r there... UP there...

I really miss everyone in ausmat... lectures, freezing classrooms, the audi room, the library, the cafeteria...

The days will become those days and we r now talking about university....

So long, FAREWELL!!

Einstein Special Theory of Relativity | something special

2010-10-16T02:53:00.000-07:00

Space and time...

Speed and length....

Energy and mass....

Decided to write something meaningful on my blog rather than really random stuff and I understand this won't bring me any visitors >< btw, I should be studying now.... with my bro =D

Ok, back to the main point! Why did I chose to write bout this? Hmm.... Because everyone is struggling with this?? I feel like bringing out bad memories about mock. Easy to study?? Em.... All about reading. Easy to understand? Em.... Do you think Einstein will come out with something easy to understand with his weirdo brain? Totally agree with what Eilenne say: "A lot of thinking, darling!"

Actually I was quite excited to see this chapter in my syllabus (I'll be killed!) Oh well, no one reads.... shhh... Maybe it's bcz I had a very special conversation once. Back in Sr1 I believe, in our favourite hang out spot -- Physics Lab. My friend asked me: "什么是相对论?" =O Right and wrong?? Black and white?? HAHA!! had a nice laugh cz no one knows... Guess what my dad told me: "How can you don't know relativity when you are studying physics?!?! It's like you don't know E=mc^2!!!" =="" totally speechless....

So, the whole point is I at least can have a different type of conversation with him?? After all, he said he got this question when he was in the scholarship interview many many years ago. No wonder he always get so excited when it comes to this topic.

***

So what is it all about traveling with the speed of light and trying to stop time or even look thinner? HAHA!!! Well.... I don't know about that.

The relationship between each other ain't that simple. Everything is correct!! Just how you look about this. (So how to answer exam question??) Not trying to be some kinda show off people here, just stating what I felt... Really that simple.

＃有希望就一定有失望

＃有成功就一定有失败

[sounds like something bad?]

How about this??

＃有失望就一定有希望

＃有失败就一定有成功

[better?? At least it sounds more motivating here]

***

~~to be continued!!~~

~~(Back to the ambiguous topic later... study)~~

It's just starting....

2010-10-09T20:47:00.000-07:00

8/10/2010

11:50 am

I am officially done with mock =)

Should be a happy thing but.... okie... not talking bout it....

1/11/2010

WACE!!!!!

Gotta study hard now...

no more procrastinating I HOPE?!?!?

All the best for my A-lvl friends having their As next few week....

lets hope for the best!!!

For u

2010-10-04T07:25:00.000-07:00

Vwrene:

Yup! This is for u! Surprise ^^

Hmm... Where should I start....

Remember I asked you that night whether you are scared? Even though you din cry or wat, I can still hear that you seriously miss this place. Guess what, I actually cried when I did the video! But when we are all watching it together, I din feel that pain but I felt how our heart get closer and closer. I felt the heart ache of not being able to see you off. I felt how proud having you as our friend!!!

No one cried that night and we literally played CRAZILY! But this is something special, proves that you are so different to few of us!!! You created all the sweet and happy memories! So why should we cry??!? Right??

I suddenly recall the girl that is so shy! I remember that day when you got ur chinese paper and cried... I recall all ur craziness and also how u care for a person when they are hurt. I remember those things that you tell me all at once now! Although you may seem to suddenly grow up so much in this few months, you are still the one and only CHIA VWRENE -- our forever baby!!!

Remember, we'll always be with you! Ur smile, laughter and craziness will always be with us and our support will always be with you ^^

Love ya lots...

Sorry for not being able to see you off tomorrow....

Miss ya lots

From Cecilia:

去到那边记得要上网告诉我们状况如何，记得我们永远支持你！

你是我第一个医生朋友哦，我很光荣！！

It's Time

2010-09-25T07:16:00.000-07:00

~~September.....~~

October.... November.....

WOW!! That's very fast. I know I shouldn't be blogging now, but just to waste some of my time. I have always wonder how will I die during mock. AND NOW!!! Mock is just around the corner and I am seriously super UNPREPARED. Madly insane to have no study break before that.

My recent topic test??? Just horrible =( Maybe I have deteriorate??? Or I am facing failure again? HAIH!!! Just horrible! Don't feel like thinking about it as there is one more EVEN scary thing happening this sunday... (which is TOMORROW!!!) ORAL!!! AAAHHHHH!!!! Ya I sound crazy. BUT! I got a feeling that I'll die tomorrow. PLZ pray no technical failure, PLZ pray for nothing related to sports, PLZ pray my brain is awake then... Lots of hope, Lots of burden....

Torn apart

2010-09-04T00:19:00.000-07:00

Killing myself.

Did I made the correct decision to go overseas next year?? Anyone willing to go overseas with me? I thought I am independent enough. THE TRUTH?? I overestimated myself.

Went through the residential halls just now. No air-con. Shared bathroom. Don't feel good about it. And I am not that sociable. What to do?? Course not available in Malaysia's uni.

Maybe the true life is starting now. Worrying about the ELD presentation, oral, topic tests, Mock, WACE, uni admission. Don't think so far. Just think about the "routine" in September kills me. HAIH!!! LIFE, NOT-THAT-SIMPLE anymore.

Someone once tell me it feels good to have the least expectation. Maybe I need to learn, things are not as perfect anymore. Even families will not always be there everytime, not to say friends. Parents will start to throw things for you to decide, they will start to expect more from you, expect you to be more mature, more independent. I'm lacking that... for sure.

Am I the only one feeling this way? Am I the only one who lost the anxiety? Am I the only one who always feel the loneliness? Or.... it's just me and ~~myself~~.

How I wish NO ONE expect anything from me. I hate disappointing other people. I hate building up EXCESSIVE expectation. I hate building up EXCESSIVE confidence.

~~It is just NOT-SO-ME~~

At Last!!

2010-08-18T05:26:00.000-07:00

After so many hectic weeks, I finally got a chance to rest. Lying on my bed doing nothing is like a fantasy now. Yeah, I'm comparing with the princesses in Disneyland! HAHA!!! Joking joking, dun vomit.

For 2 weeks only, but better than nothing. After EE, my life is only about college, assignments, hw and hw, college, assignments. Living a life like this is just insane.

3 more months, and it'll all come to an end. Never thought it'll be so fast. TIME FLIES!!! Memories about my last day in KC is still so fresh... From wondering whether to stay for SR3, to do a-lvls or to do Ausmat till now deciding whether to take engineering to science. We have grown up, more mature... (at least i think i am).

Oral, assignments, hw, mock, WACE....

I'll come back later to "look" for u... Wait for me and u'll discover something different!

ps: going to korea this year!! YIPPY!!! =D

身在福中不知福。。

2010-08-07T02:48:00.000-07:00

A few months ago....

~~Miss those days when I am able to smile.~~

Believe it or not! I didn't take any photo for the past 2 months. Shocking huh?!?! Realized it when I'm trying to change my profile picture and all my pics are like ages ago...

Lifeless?? Pathetic??? Nerdy?? NAh, I get it all the time.... doesn't affect me anymore...

I have like piles and piles of homeworks and assignments waiting for me and I'm still blogging.... This is another way for me to waste time k?? Accept it!! Maybe I need to cheer up to be motivated! 3 more months and everything is ending. I need some form of outing!!! Jia, sue, vwrene, chennie, cecilia! I'm looking forward now!

Will miss everyone!

~~Probability! U make me cry! HmPh!!!!~~

Decision... decision...

2010-07-13T07:02:00.000-07:00

Wonder am I too conscious... So many things are happening.... even though I'd prepared for it, it is still so difficult to find a time now to think. Maybe I was too lazy and lifeless for the past few weeks right after EE.

If you ask me, what is the toughest thing?? I won't answer you physics, chemistry or even maths. It'll be future. I wish I was sure with my own decisions. But opinions are starting to separate me from reality and dream. I'm lost between my decision and my interest with people's expectations.

It's now july, or I should say July is going to end. 4 more months and I'll finish Ausmat. WOW!! Never expected it to be so fast. Never thought I'll still be miserable after so long. Should I go overseas?? Should I stay in M'sia?? Engineering?? Actuarial?? WHERE WILL I BE IN A FEW MONTHS TIME?!?!

Everyone is starting to rush me, ask me... Maybe I should keep it to myself... So I leave no one with any expectation.

ZZEErRoo expectation...

By the way... LOVE ECLIPSE!!!

Jacob is getting HAWT!!! ^^

I'm BACK darling!!!

2010-06-29T19:55:00.000-07:00

Back to all the reality, back to all the stress and back to my mackie.

As I promised myself before the trip, I did my best to enjoy myself. And I dO!!! I have never taken so many photos for my sort of annual trip to S'pore cz I know I'll be going back again. But this time, taking photos is a good way to let me forget about all the stress i'll be facing in 24 hrs time. Although I'm left alone most of the time during this trip, shop alone, alone when everyone is in the casino, I still have fun. Credits to chockie for "being" aka fb chat with me when I was alone in the lounge using the pc for 3 hrs...

Since all my photos are in fb now, I'll oni post a few important places.

The 2 casino...

Casino no.1: Built by genting...

Casino no.2: The SANDS.....

UNIVERS@L STUDI0!!!!!

Not that great, but what can you expect from a small place. Isn't S'pore small enough. And we are now talking about a part of the island in S'pore. So, not high expectations la. But still, I think they concentrate too much on the closed down roller coaster and the casino, din really built the other rides well. Disappointed disappointed.

Maybe is me, not really exposed to the characters from universal studio. Even the 8 famous character, I oni know Dracula, Phantom & Frankenstein... got one mummy, wolf man, and 3 more I really clueless. So end up din take any pictures with the character cz I really dunno who are they. IN THE END, guess which character I snap photo with???

Mr. Hershey!!!!

HAha, which have nothing to do with Universal studio!!! But since he's so cute, so why not!!! spot my new cap?? My "actress" cap. Was actually forced by my dad cz he have the "director" cap and my brother have a "actor" cap. A movie making family. =.=""

I can assure you almost all the restaurant are open 24 hrs. WHY?!?! For gamblers to eat mah... HAIH!!! What a smart way to earn money.

In conclusion, I still prefer a more fantasy theme park. Tokyo Disneyland!!! Maybe I'm more exposed to the characters there. All those princess, cute animals, who are not exposed to it since young?? I miss my japan trip no matter how many years passed... T^T

My Humble House

Starting to wonder what is it??? It's a name of a restaurant. Please don't be cheated by the name, it is not that humble. Or I should say no way near humble.

More to "My romantic house" cz the whole restaurant is filled with candle lights ^^

Why is it not humble?? Take a look at the restaurant decoration. Din't get to snap any photos inside the restaurant, cz too many people. Flash will be too obvious.

Especially the menu! Made me clueless cz the name of the dishes is too poetry for me to understand. #^^#

Name of the menu.

Different sections...

o.0!! Good night sweetheart = mango sorbet??

NOw, all back to normal. Well prepared for the next challenge. FIGHTING!!!

2010-06-19T17:20:00.000-07:00

2nd day of hols

The long waited outing ^^

At last, my darling and i went out yesterday... 2 person missing though... the super busy person ^^ lazy to put the photos on fb cz i din really hv a lot of those...

went to eat lunch before movie... took my darling jia and sue to pasta zanmai!!! believe me... i am kinda good decision maker!! >.- *wink*

the yolk looks gross @@

WATCHED TOY STORY 3D!! AWESOME!!! but i stil think RM 18 per person is a lil expensive.. but dun care la!! #D glasses with flash is AAWWEEESSOOMMEE!!! hehe... but we look like ghosts right????

SAW the big poster!!! taking silly photos without knowing there are ENORMOUS number of people downstairs... *paiseh paiseh*

we had fun watching the spanish buzz!! AND i personally love the peas ><>

SEE!!! cute right :D

then TEA in secret recipe... THUMBS down for the tiramisu... it doesn't even taste like a tiramisu... but Thumbs up for the black forest (except for the berry berry stuff) eww ><

After sending our ALL-GROWN-UP baby vwrene to the ktm station, went to hunt for new hairband ^^

this one is the expensive one... RM 29.90!!! saw another imitation one, RM 8.90 oni!! GOSH!! and the stall is side by side... of course, ignore the quality... RM 29.90 is kinda expensive... but it looks the SAME!!

haha!!! in fitting room... wanted to ask jia try something different... haih!!! failed... U DIN LOOK SEXXAAYYY JIA!!! SSEEXXAAYYY!!!! hehe...

Credits to jia cz my camera no battery edi... hehe....

2010-06-17T05:51:00.000-07:00

H - O - L - I - D - A - Y

GATHERING!!!!

S'PORE!!!

UNIVERSAL STUDIO!!!

HERE I come ^^

yay!!

Done for sem 1

2010-06-12T19:59:00.001-07:00

MAD!!!

3 more to go...

2010-06-08T19:14:00.000-07:00

钟彩丽的內在想法

*看起來很堅強，其實內心很脆弱
*喜歡模仿他人，覺得不錯的就撿起來用
*容易在雞蛋裡挑骨頭，專挑別人的不是
*有時很衝動，不夠理性
*愛狡辯，自己做錯事還要硬說是對的

钟彩丽的外在行為

*不喜歡單獨行動，喜歡跟團體一起，或是依賴另一半
*有時很愛挑剔別人的不是，連細小的過錯都不放過
*喜歡撿輕鬆的事做，辛苦的就盡量避開
*懂得相處之道，人際關係不錯
*有時會為了自己而不顧他人，讓人覺得有些自私

This is too me....

do you think so???

try this ^^

http://www.fatemaster.tw/name.php?n1=&n2=&button2=算命

2010-05-28T17:58:00.000-07:00

Lecturers appreciation day...

super sien leh!!! and since our eld assignment are done... GUESS WHAT?!?! Esther asked us whether 3 of us wanna go pyramid after class...

since they say attendance will be taken (i dun really believe)... we, being the good girls decided to take a look...

GOSH!! the performance are... horrible... no offence... at least the first two performances are making me speechless... how i wish kc performer can come to sunway... kc performances are always superb and grand!!!

brought my cammie to college... realise 3 of us are n

ot camwhore ppl... HOW CAN GIRLS FORGET TO TAKE PICTURES?!?! my fault, the cammie was with me ALL the time... ESTHER!! AMANDA!!! we need to hv a proper +pretty photo!!!

maybe aft ee ^^

actually wanted to buy my granny's b'day present, but since we oni hv about half an hour there... plus 3 of us dun really go to pyramid... we decided (or i should say i came out with the idea) of buying the SAME bag!!!

tada!!! hehe!! will be carrying to college every tuesday, wednesday and FRIDAY!!!

woohoo!! excited...

end up going to mid valley alone yesterday to buy my granny's present...

shopping alone is so sad... living in the world of darknest... wanted to call sue, but gotta study after tht... so yeah...

AFTER EE SUE!!! i book u!!!

an excuse for me to buy some essential items...

make up stuff, lip balm, presents...

ya... i dun make up for college... i feel uncomfortable k?

note that i bought 2 lip balm?!?! it is buy 1 free 1!!!

bought an awesome key chain too to decorate my new bag...

love!! love!!

and this will be MUA college bag... NO MORE ORDINARY!!!

ps: I'm a DRIVER!!! anyone brave enough to sit my car??

2010-05-20T03:48:00.000-07:00

I was shocked by my ability to cry twice today...

HAIH!!!

I must stop the crying from today onwards...

please, no more crying in college...

It kinda annoys me and i bet my classmates too...

SO SORRY PPL!!!

I must be more mature!!!

wait and see, I'll not CRY anymore!!!

NO MORE!!!

2010-05-10T03:10:00.000-07:00

"How was ur driving test?"

"I failed inside... =( "

"Which one??"

"guess!!"

"slope??"

"NO!!"

"side parking"

"no....."

"HUH!! 3 point turn?!?!"

"yea T-T"

"HAHAHA!!! how can u fail 3 point turn!!!!"

yea ppl....

thanks for the laugh...

thanks for telling me how disappointed are you...

STOP IT!!!

I'm stupid ok...

I'm silly ok!!!

i admit it...

dun need so many people to remind me...

JUST SHUT UP!!!

hhmmpphh!!

2010-05-07T11:21:00.000-07:00

YUP!!!

BRAND NEW DAY....

*********************

didn't have a great day in college yesterday. Cried, again. Of all time, before class starts. The stupidest thing to do, cz it sort of ruin my day. Why? sms me if you wanna know... Won't talk about it here.

After all, a big hug to sue and a great thanks to her. Just something I wanna tell her.

"Thanks for accompanying me when I was not in a good shape, thanks for understanding all my problems without any description, thanks for all the advices. Because you know me too well, maybe more than what I know about myself. Thought of talking to you since quite long but you seems to be stress due to the exams coming on and al the new subjects you are taking. GAMBATEH!!! I wouldn't know who to tell if you are not studying in Sunway. I wouldn't what to do in the future when you are not with me anymore. Which will happen in 7 months time. Sorry if I created any burden."

Love Ya Lots, Tons of Hug"

Realise that I'm becoming more like a cry baby especially in college. Maybe I expect too much from myself... expect too much from other people. Maybe I thought I was strong enough to face problems myself. Haih...

But life was never easy.

Went downstairs to sit by the swimming pool the night before around 12 something. Ya, midnight. A great timing for an emo session to start. A great timing to think what have I done wrong for the past few months. I was never so stress in kc, NEVER. Not to say I don't have, but it was all about studies and it was never a problem if I wanna look for a person to talk to.

Too many things happened and this is only may. Too many things are going too happen and is happening. Many more assignment + test + problems waiting for my arrival.

Prepare for the worst, hope for the best.

2010-05-07T05:40:00.000-07:00

miss dancing...

miss all the free time i HAD for the past 17 years....

2010-04-27T05:28:00.001-07:00

Will try my very best not to be emo...

CZ i've a GOOD news to tell!!!

I HAVE MY VERY OWN LAPTOP!!!!

oh YEAH!!!

YUP!!!

macbook pro!!!

it kept me happy and in an oh-so-crazy mood for...

A WEEK!!!

yeah, a week....

an AW3s0m3 week ^^

pathetic huh!!!

of cz....

it must hv "m-u-a" in the display pic!!!

TADA!!!

a better view ^^

spot urself??

( you need a pair of good eyesight)

--------------------------------------------------------

tell you ppl something....

i did complain bout mac...

dun even think of scolding me k??

bcz of the not-so-smart msn...

luckily i hv nicole!!!

hehe ^^

bought my mac from her too...

sorry to cause tons of useless problems ya darling...

in the end...

aMsn, skype, iChat, gmail!!!!

haha...

+++++++

something new

PHOTO BOOTH & iPhoto

perfect match especially when u r in a serious camwhoring mood...

but lazy to hold anything...

was trying to act like i'm studying...

this is the consequences of having such lov3ly laptop ^^

2010-04-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

introducing....

the R-E-A-L life

3/5 PHY task due date

4/5 PHY topic test

10/5 DRIVING test

11/5 CHEM report due date

12/5 MORAL test

13/5 CHEM topic test

17/5 MATHS 3C/3D topic test

21/5 ELD task due date

22/5 KC CARNIVAL (the only thing i'm looking forward)

kill u ---- procrastination!!!

due dates... assignment...

still being emo....

wish me luck...

ps: anyone willing to cheer me up???

2010-04-22T05:26:00.000-07:00

哭过就好了!!!

雨过就会天晴了!!!!

彩虹也会出现.....

is it real??

am i facing the real life???

or I was just living in fantasy for the past 17 years....

thought a life filled with hw and assignments is busy and pathetic enough...

and now...

I need to face social problems...never thought working as a group or even pairing up with another person will lead to all these trouble...

maybe I should tone down... i really wish i was never a smart or even hardworking person....

i wish i was able to accept the fact that kc life is a past tense now...

just looking back at myself now and i'm shocked.... I'm shocked on how selfish i was... how mean i am now... maybe my kc friends will hate me if they are still with me.... WILL THEY STILL BE MY FRIEND???

today, esther, amanda and I cried in college... no one knows... and i hope this will only appear in my blog but not a topic of gossip in anywhere... i really want to say sorry to both of you... i didn't mean to start crying... i've never cried over this kind of thing before... just thought how innocent i was... thought that everyone will at least do their part.... forgot about a sentence "no one is perfect, everyone is different".... maybe i wanted too much... but i forgot how to give... how i wish i was still in kc that every single day i am able to sit down in class to think and to rejuvenate myself.... not that i don't like college life... A life without tying my hair every morning... A life without uniform.... A life without "MY CLASSROOM".... i just hope that my life can be just as simple... which i think won't happen from the day i decided not to do sr3....

ps: plz keep it a secret... i just need to have somewhere to express.... if not.... i would just make my blog private ^^

2010-04-20T09:03:00.000-07:00

有时,我希望....

你不会读....

不明白....

华语...

2010-04-13T13:57:00.000-07:00

GOSH!!!

I've never tried this before....

woke up at 3am...

couldn't sleep back....

really dun feel well this week...

FRUSTRATED!!!!

sorry...

if i ever do something u dun like....

2010-03-25T04:58:00.000-07:00

CALL ME

CARELESS QUEEN!!!

realise that i'm actually a quite hardworking blogger...

BUT!!!!

TOO not popular...

wonder how i know??

cz....

MY lil chat box is always in a "very hungry" status...

HAHA!!!!

maybe i'm too emo....

as stated...

careless will be my middle name...

cz i may have scored higher marks for my MAS topic test....

how i wish i were still in kc...

there will be people scoring like 60/60!!!!

geng leh!!!!

CANNOT be satisfied 1st...

but must be HAPPY!!!

if not LO.OK at my lovely CHEMISTRY...

it WAS my favourite subject when i was in form 3...

but i SUCK in it now...

IMPROVE IMPROVE IMPROVE!!!

i remember there is a sentence my hz5 coach tell us last time...

we must still improve no matter we are smart or stupid...

even though we are once the top and we stop working...

other people will be working hard to improve...

AND one day u will end up being the last cz u stop improving...

so it seems that u r getting worst...

BUT it isn't...

i was so inspired by what he said...

totally agree!!!

AND must apply in my WORLD now

2010-03-22T04:50:00.000-07:00

SHATTERED

2010-03-19T05:58:00.000-07:00

REMEMBER when we were young...

those grown ups ask us to write a letter to ourselves??

since i'm so bored now....

I'll write one now ...
dear me:

it's already march, time flies... even the march intake is in sunway now.... creepy huh?? After SPM results, everything seems to start all over again... study... study... hw... hw... topic test... even me, a girl from kc... which means a girl that is so use to having test at least few times a month is getting tired... wonder how those government school students cope with it.... FREINDS, IT TAKES TIME...

they remind me a lot of myself when i was in form 1.. the blur blur girl that suck in her results bcz she couldn't get use to the awkward and pathetic kc education system... yup, i do feel relieve ^^

let me refresh ur memories... i was once so stupid that i couldn't score more than 70 in my maths... i was once so stupid that i couldn't even score more than 60 in physics... these times comes and go... life is filled with ups and down...

i do have moments when i screwed up in my EXAMS... i have tried forgetting all the formulas during my year end maths exam... i have tried forgetting all the nilai during the moral exam... so no one is a genius...

of cz, ppl who are born with those incredible genius genes will be always the person who make us feel jealous.... no one wants to be dumb... no one wants to FAIL!!! don't say you don't mind... cz i know it's just to soothe your own feelings...

even now, i still feel afraid... i'm scared that one day i'll reached my limits and everyone starts to forget my existence... i'm scared that one day i'll fail... my successful moments are worth remembering and worth a smile =)

but when failure comes... it do bring me down... NOW, lets do some counting... form 1 (down), form 2 (down), form 3(up), form 4 (down), form 5(ups)... not to forget how i fumble in my SPM... these are all the thing u'll learn in life zl... quote a sentence from godmama "To be successful, you need to learn how to accept failure"...

HOWEVER, i'll be lying.... if i tell u i'll accept failure.. YES, i'm a chicken.. i'm scared of being looked down by ppl.. i'm scared because i know without my results, no one will come to me... not to say u ppl are faking... i just mean someone... i do feel insulted when someone praise me with a weird tone... i'm not a psychic... but i'd grown up with the ability to understand how ppl think by looking into their eyes... i must repeat [I'M NOT A PSYCHIC]!!! it's just due to all the experience... experience of being cheated... being betrayed... being scolded for nothing because of tons and tons of misunderstanding...
tears had fall... wet my face more than once... my heart was once broken... became emotion-less... but it heal... all by itself and the nights... maybe i'm not a good friend... not good in socializing... but i can assure all of u.. i won't change, i won't!!! at least not for now.... not for anyone...

FACE MASK!!! something that everyone will have... will be revealed... only in my blog... not elsewhere... i can be happy... but hv my heart aching at the same time... i can be emotion-less... but hv my brain running and thinking at the same time... maybe after this post, everyone will stop being friends with me.... but dudes, please inform me 1st... i'd suffer more than enough of this... i'll try to understand why, but don't scold me or hate me if i couldn't understand....

I MAKE FRIENDS USING MY HEART, MY FEELINGS....

I'LL BE SHOCKED if anyone of you can finish reading this post without sleeping

love,

zhai li

2010-03-10T05:50:00.000-08:00

11/3/2010 SPM results

15/3/2010 MAS topic test

17/3/2010 CHEMISTRY topic test

22/3/2010 MATHS 3C/3D topic test

24/3/2010 CHEMISTRY test

dudes, believe me.....

u'll spot the new me after this hectic month...

the CORPSE ------ ZHAI LI

2010-03-07T02:02:00.000-08:00

突然很想用华语写一些东西。。。可能也是应为我觉得college的朋友不怎么会看华语吧！！对于那些会看的，就对你说声“对不起！”

之前的post都很悲。。。可能我真的是太忙了。。。根本没时间好好地想。。。到底有什么事情让我真正的又心底笑出来。。。

直到昨天，感谢我哥抽空陪我看SHE的演唱会。。。我知道若坐我旁边的人不是我哥。。。我100%不会玩得那么颠，喊得那么大声！！！虽然只是那短短的3个小时。。真的让我超怀念那个还没做工的哥哥。。。只有跟他在一起，我才可以不用理会一些令人很头痛的事情！！！

SPM成绩就要出炉了。。。

原本不怎么害怕的我，

终于害怕了。。。

为什么呢？？？

因为每一天。。。

大家都在倒数。。。

真是无聊。。。。

大家都说我不用怕。。。

因为我一定会考得很好。。。

可是，我太了解自己了。。。。

我没有信心。。。

是因为考试当天我根本没办法专心。。。

满脑都是一些无关的事情。。。。

HAIH!!!

还有另一件让我痛心的事。。。

FRIDAY 的 AUDITION。。。。

跟我无关。。。。

我不介意。。。。

可是我害怕那晚。。。。

我又再一次心碎。。。。

因为我每次看到别人在power studio 跳舞时。。。

我都想跑进去。。。。

可是，勇气终不会站在我身边。。。。

所以我超讨厌到那里。。。。

每一个舞步，都在把我的心逐渐拆烂。。。。

逐渐让我开始对一切事物。。。。。

麻痹了。。。。

我真的很怕。。。。

很怕我会变得毫无感情的动物。。。。

2010-02-27T18:09:00.000-08:00

I thought writing this post in chinese... but i really need to brush up on my english skills... Gotta write essay for EALD class tomorrow... T-T... Freaky... hope my lecturer won't faint when she sees my essay... and my presentation... KILL ME!!!

Just when i'm slowly getting use to everything in college... meeting up with my high school friends really stop my thought... i paused for a few hours... i stop thinking about how or wat to study next for a few hours... you ppl changed me for a few hours... when i look at you ppl playing... no matter wat... when they laugh, i'll feel happy... maybe that's why ppl always wonder why i always laugh... I'm not silly k?? i'm just shocked that we changed so much... Yesterdays open hse, sue chin was he oni one left in kc... knowing more and more ppl leaving kc... i believe that few of us had made the right decision...

YES, i admit that high school is better than college once you reach college... Everyone will look forward to their future... Almost everyone will not be happy with the current situation... but we will always tell ppl younger than us and ask them to appreciate... just like what people tell us when we are young...

I'll be very honest here... I really cried this time when everyone left my hse... I still need more time to get rid of the high school sickness... all our memories... i really hope it'll be always in our hearts....

Previously, all our gathering will normally end up with ffks and busy busy busy... until this year... maybe we start to realize that everyone is going to leave... not only leaving us... it'll be leaving the country...

No matter what....

"muakx" will do the job to all my darlings, babies and sweeties... ^^

BY THE WAY...

Happy birthday Chennie and Jia!!!!

this may be the last time we gather and celebrate birthday among ourselves...

Sorry for the lack of presents...

Cz i believe the best present will be a TRUE FRIEND's hug that we will rmbr forever...

2010-02-27T07:27:00.000-08:00

i'm seriously sad now...

sad that everyone is leaving....

leaving M'sia....

leaving our memories behind....

2010-02-16T06:16:00.000-08:00

Maybe I'm just too emotional... but i couldn't stand it anymore... seeing all the post about how they miss kc... how they miss their friends... it makes me think.... what is happening to all of us??? maybe it is the worst chinese new year and valentines we'd been through...

I'm still not used to it... miss buying chinese new year card for my friends... miss buying chocolates for my friends or even receiving chocolates during valentines... miss being able to say that valentines is not only among couples but also among friends... miss all the CNY celebration in school...

its really different... totally change my perspective of everything...

Last year... I even went out of the assembly hall when hz5 was performing on stage... BUT NOW... I really hope that i still have a chance to look at their performance... once is really enough... but do i still have the courage?? do they still rmbr that i was with them for 4 years?? i really dunno.... why do i feel embarrassed and my heart feels like dripping blood whenever i see their happy faces??? maybe i'm embarrassed because i din stand still... i din follow my true feelings that i still love dancing...

"You are a college student now, be independent, be mature, think before everything happened"

Things are not as perfect as we used to be... friends that are closer than our own family... 5 years or even 4 years of friendship.... I never thought it'll turn out to be that meaningful to all of us that leave kc... seeing those daily post by elynn and choc about their last year in kc... makes me feel that we are once so happy... and we don't seems to appreciate it until last year.. not to say college is unhappy... but we are sort of from different cultures... different environment... i said that i'll start to be brave now onwards... but i want to be pampered again... i want to be wanted... i want to be protected... i want to feel charged up when i meet my friends... i want to be a child... i want to have that feeling of talking without feeling scared that i will hurt their feelings... because i know that we are always like that... we like to crap and gossip then forget every single awful things in a minute or two...

I rmbr last time i'll sure go to school when i am sick... because i know that i will not feel tired, stressful, or even aimless when i am with my darlings... but it's only the 1st month being in the college... i couldn't concentrate on what is the lecturer is teaching... looking at the notes given by them... makes me think of kc teachers... looking at how those people mix around... makes me think of how we play and shout in class... i couldn't feel ease... i'm tired of walking from one class to another class every two hrs... i miss sitting in the class sleeping... doing hw... chatting with the people sitting around me when the teachers are not around... i miss wearing the sailor colour school uniform... with the most beautiful stitch of "KC" on it... thinking of what to wear every morning is tiring...

I set my blog as "be-happy" for a reason... i know i always post emo things... maybe you people hate it a lot... but it's the way i express... i feel very awkward to tell to another person... it feels like i'll cause unnecessary burden to another person...

Is it me??? or everyone that leaves kc feels this way?? i always feels like a piece of me was still left in kc... i want to pick it back up... but i'm scared that i'll be forgotten... i'll be a history... they say that college and university friends will be the closest friend in the future... because we have similar dreams... similar place to reach... then what happens now... i couldn't stop missing my kc girls... my kc darlings... even though i look super happy when i'm in college... playing with my new friends... will they say no to me just because of my not-so-attractive attitude??

what will happen next?? maybe a month more or two... i'll laugh at my sillyness when i see this post... because things change... i will not be pampered, protected or wanted anymore... i'll be a stranger that i myself cannot recognise myself...

everything has an end....

every relationship will change...

maybe when we have a chance to gather....

we'll not be kids anymore...

we'll be grown ups...

2010-02-12T17:11:00.000-08:00

Tada!!!

the one and only picture of me in the college!!!

the girl beside me is Esther and Amanda...

Pretty leh!!!!

I know i look retarded here...

But dun care la...

Notice three of us wore RED???

Almost 90% of the class wore red cz we 捞鱼生 after class...

obviously three of us were there to shout “捞！捞！捞！”

HAHA!!!

joker la....

Just to update u ppl who wants to eat my mum's food...

I hv an open house on 27th feb...

i guess ppl seldom view my blog...

so for those who see...

WILL BE LUCKY!!!

2010-02-11T05:57:00.000-08:00

I'd never been like this before....

I wonder what had happened to me...

I miss my friends too much???

I have too much pressure???

I couldn't act like what i used to be???

Still don't know what to do after this year??

I'm still wondering....

wondering where will i be later...

I say i don't know what i want because I know...

I know what will you say...

Psychology???

Nurse???

Air-stewardess??

no future... no money.... difficult to look 4 a job...

you may say....

That's why I'm not studying Biology...

I'm sick of all these nonsense...

Please don't expect too much from me...

I'm just me....

I'll not be Albert Einstein....

I'll just be me...

a normal person...

so can you stop asking me what or how my future will be???

I know you wouldn't like my answer...

So, don't Ask!!!

2010-02-06T16:37:00.000-08:00

firstly....

for those who likes to look at pictures...

i think it's time u leave my blog for a while

(i really mean a while)

cz i'll not hv any pictures

it's been a month in sunway...

was lonely when i just started class though...

but i'm now better...

trying to make more friends...

not to mention my comrades for these few weeks...

amanda...

(the person who always teman me cz we hv the EXACT same time table ^^ )

esther...

(the smart & gentle gurl who teaches me a lot)

han qi

(the not so mature guy although he's one year older than us)

steven

(the craziest guy i'd ever met... non stop making fun of me..)

(but thx for helping me to get back my precious bottle)

of cz...

not forgetting...

the crazy gang....

mc, yin kwan...

the smart gang..

lok yee, edy...

& foreigner!!!

azin....(sad tht she's leaving due to extreme home-sick T^T)

I din know tht i can get along with them so well....

we're like always together...

lunch...

break time....

class time...

assignment time...

As my college peeps still dunno tht i hv a blog..

(think so)

i'll be very honest....

i'm still not used to studying with so many boys....

still not used to sitting there n hearing tons of DEEP voices behind me...

know it sounds funny...

but forgive me...

i'm from a girls school....

what do u expect.....

but i really understand a statement...

boys are somehow more intelligent...

(exclude some plz)

even though they play so much!!!!

i'd always choose not believe in this...

haih....

saw so many ppl uploaded pics on their college life in fb...

i just realize tht i hv none...

i did thought of bringing my cam just to snap some...

but my bag is alredy super heavy!!!!

my phone???

will think bout it.....

but i do look ugly.....

still... should be better when i was in kc though!!!

talk bout sunway...

i din get to meet sue....

especially since she took LAW...

miss her leh....

I'm now really busy...

busy on wat u may guess...

hw, test, assignment....

the problem with Ausmat is...

all these hv marks...

sort of the kc system...

but...

50% is A LOT!!!!

but i'll not need to study like HELL for the external exam....

i always hv the tendency to fumble....

EASILLY!!!!

After all...

It's only 1st week of feb...

more to go...

not to forget CNY!!!!

i was hoping for a break for very long...

and our gathering+sleepover at vwrene's house...

hope it'll work this time...

but cecilia cannot come..

T^T

thts it for now...

gtg study for the coming soon physics test....

last test before CNY... (i hope)

hope tht i'll get good results...

cannot fumble in my favourite subject...

(besides maths specialist) ....

ciaozzzzzzz ^^

ps: i got 50/50 in 8m 55s for my KPP!!! HURRAY!!!!

2010-01-30T22:49:00.000-08:00

I hate being alone...

never hate it this much...

I hate it when i'm not able to talk to anyone for 24 hrs...

where r u ppl???

am i the only one left in this horrible world???

2010-01-24T01:31:00.000-08:00

i'm stuck with so many hw from college.... my brain is only filed with physics now... i really miss my high school teacher so much... at least their are more kind... ad they won't be so evil by giving 46 ques for us to do in 3 days!!! doesn't sound a lot??? but the main thing is my skills got rusty and i used an hour to finish 1 BRILLIANT physics ques!!!! and i still have many more to go...

Not to mention the maths:3C/3D.... it's the more diff version of add maths... SO SUPER COMPLICATED!!!! and i wonder why they want us to buy the thin book which cost RM109 which couldn't solve my confusion on the maths...& the EXPENSIVE TI-89 titanium graphic calculator which cost RM480... wonder why they want us to buy this expensive calculator when they have a calculator free section in the WACE exam... not even scientific calculator is allowed!!! GOSH!!!

miss copying and asking mathematics and physics ques from sue chin, evelyn, yee ching & wan jing... maybe i just rely too much on them when i'm doing maths..yup... i feel like a total DUMMY in college... *craking my head while wondering how can i finish ALL my hw by tonight!!*

just when my muscle and brain cell are so exhausted!!! i went back to kc yesterday morning for the so call CNY celebration... meeting my friends really make me power up!!! YOU GUYS ARE MY POWER SUPPLY!!! however, it's so tiring cz the school is FILLED with people!!! it's like ants & ants!!! & kc was so hot (maybe i got used to the freezing cold classroom and library in sunway)... sue & i was like sweating and sweating non-stop... i do have a great potential in sweating... i just need to stand in a place without fan or air-con to sweat... no matter it's night or day, windy or sunny...

some how i didn't regret leavin kc since the last time i went back to do my school-leaving cert... i as even SUPER sure that leaving kc was the better choice yesterday... cz sue & i was scolded just because we din wear the visitor pass... IN FRONT OF ALL OUR JUNIOR!!! w were like totaly shoked!!! DO U THINK WE"RE STILL KID!!! the pass was so soggy!!! yucks... just disgusting to wear that thing on our neck!!! if we didn't respect u as an old man, it'll be US scolding u!!!

Besides, kc department only know to ask the person to walk here walk there!!! can't you call the department 1st before asking us to go there... dont forget that ur administrative office is so far away... & it's so hot... walking around the school to wait for the signature for the form was just simply ridiculous... all the teachers were like looking at me wondering around the school!!! & we leave when we are form 5, not leaving in like f1,f2,f3 or f4!!! it's normal for u to give us the school-leaving cert when we are not there for the so many weeks..."when i respect u!!! DON"T TAKE FOR GRANTED" is what i want to tell kc...

As u see, i am so mad this week by ARHEM... gotta relax a bit right??? so my family & i went to LaFite for dinner... just before my dad retire next week... trying to enjoy life for the last time before my brother earn enough money to bring us there... but i think he will won't think of us by then la!!! LaFite is the type of restaurant that can only go once in a blue moon... cz the price is SO FLYING HIGH!!!
so the excitement do make me forget my stress...

I have not wear the dress since i was 12 years old... glad that i still can fit in... and i really sick of the dark colour dresses i had over the years... so decided to wear a brighter colour dress...i didn't really take many pictures there... because i forget to bring my camera... so i just use my phone to snap some...

the decorations...

on the dining table...it's real!!! it's WET!!! hehe>.<

when we are waiting for food...

our refreshener after starters...

the most delicious apple sorbet...

my main course...

the best thing i like about LaFite...

they will always offer you free desserts even though you din oder... but i thonk you paid for it edi la!!! however, i like the former chef cooking more...

SEE!!! my dad so excited!!!

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS!!!! their TOILET!!! knowing me as a person who don't like to go to toilet with the yucky smell... i feel like a princess in their toilet!!!the whole toilet has only mirrors... no wall!!!

this is to let u look at how you PEE!!! EEEWWWW!!!!

the basin...

they even have orkids!!!

chair & a corner just for you to make yourself look better...

STUNNING HUH!!!

now i got to concentrate on my hw!!! wish me good luck!!!

<3 ciao!!! <3

2010-01-21T05:33:00.001-08:00

COLLEGE LIFE...

Sunway University College...

it seems to be set be4 i decide where to go...

because my bro studied there too...

but studying Ausmat was really an Impromptu decision...

thought of studying A-levels since i decided not to do sr3...

but A-levels is really diff...

not looking down on Ausmat k???

din want to go to Austrailia actually...

i hv always wanted to go to UK...

kinda weird huh?!?!?!?!?!?!

& i think i'm the oni one person who is brave enough not to take biology...

not to say i hate bio...

but health sciences was my always dream...

dun think it'll gonna come true now...

feel like a total failure in class...

maybe i'm too used to kc teacher teaching style...

especialy maths...

HORRIBLE!!!!

I'M SO STUPID!!!!

TOTAL FAILURE!!!

maybe i lost the touch in maths edi....

really hate this feeling...

anyone!!!

help me can back my feeling of love to maths...

i dun hv time to do it slowly anymore...

because this is my only year....

either flying high??? or falling low....

SCARED!!!!

ATAR!!! ATAR!!! ATAR!!!!

being a total dummy again!!!

2010-01-16T06:13:00.000-08:00

heard this song just now...

我只在乎你

如果没有遇见你,
我将会是在哪里?
日子过得怎么样,
人生是否要珍惜?
也许认识某一人,
过着平凡的日子.
不知道会不会,
也有爱情甜如蜜?

任时光匆匆流去,
我只在乎你.
心甘情愿感染你的气息.
人生几何能够得到知己?
失去生命的力量也不可惜.
所以我求求你,
别让我离开你.
除了你,我不能感到,
一丝丝情意.

如果有那么一天,
你说即将要离去.
我会迷失我自己,
走入无边人海里.
不要什么诺言,
只要天天在一起.
我不能只依靠,
片片回忆活下去.

任时光匆匆流去,
我只在乎你.
心甘情愿感染你的气息.
人生几何能够得到知己?
失去生命的力量也不可惜.
所以我求求你,
别让我离开你.
除了你,我不能感到,
一丝丝情意.

the courus part truly make me cry...

"你"....知己....

"情意"... friendship...

"时光".... 5 years...

all these while...

i really din expect myself 2 miss u ppl so much....

tons of things tht we share...

so many memories....

so many laughter....

so many gossips....

all of the sudden....

it all came back to my mind when i heard this song....

i couldn't stop the tears....

maybe i should stop listening to this song....

5 years really seems 2 be too fast....

nt seeing u ppl 4 these 2 weeks toture me...

SUE:

we r in the same college...
i'm really super glad to see u on the 1st day...
every morning , i hope 2 see u in the college...
u really meant A LOT to me...
u r more than a friend to me...
i do hope tht u r my sister so we can be together forever.

everytime u listen 2 my complaints...
especially when i was deciding whether to leave hz5...
sometimes when u have problems...
but u choose not 2 share with me...
i'm sorry tht i'm not there with u at that time...

sometimes i feel tht i rely on u too much tht i dunno wat 2 do if u leave my daily life...

JIA:

i miss ur silly-ness so much...
u will some how make me forget all my sadness by ur weird jokes....

everytime i sit with u....
i'll be SUPER HAPPY!!!!
haha...

nt 2 say u r a joker la....
but u just some how manage 2 be one.... ^3^

sorry if i'm nt available with u when u face problems or during ur competition...
i know u have a lot of pressure...
but u don't normally tell us...
& sometimes we din even notice...

so rmbr!!!!
free 2 tell me k???

CECILIA...

MY BIG SISTER!!!

firstly...
i'm SO SO SO sorry that i always spell ur name wrongly...
dun be angry ya...
i know u won't...^3^

u seems to be the strongest among us....
i know u try so hard 2 be independent...
and u did it!!!
i always want to have at least a quater of ur independence...
but of cz i failed to do so!!!

maybe this was my excuse all the while to depent on u...
maybe this is y i feel so lost when i came to college...

studies, exams, even my life...
i rely on ur advice so much...
maybe u dun notice...
i always like to be with u when i was pressured...
cz u will sure sooth my anxiety...

u r always a busy gurl in school...
so i'm so sorry if i add on to ur burden sometimes...

gambateh!!!
u r always the one among us that do the best decision in like...
without a doubt!!!
u will be flying high in ur future...
muakx!!!

VWRENE...

sad to say last time i always wonder whether did i spell ur name correctly...
haha!!!
but now i won't!!!
even my mom hv the diffculty to pronounce...

our forever NURSE...

i know u hate the term NURSE a lot...
but believe me....
St. John really suites u....
dun SCOLD me huh...

i always think that to be a GOOD doctor...
u gotta know how the patient feels...
and thats what a nurse do...
maybe i'm wrong...
so don't regret being the nurse of our class for so many years...

dun ever think of fogetting me as ur friend!!!
especially if u become a famous surgeon!!!
hehe!!!

believe me!!!
YOU CAN DO IT!!!

CHENNIE...

another chinese genius...
another destroyer...

i rmbr tht time when u hv probs wif ur ex-bf...
u called n tell me ur problems...
i do feel a little bit shocked...
and i felt miserable when i need to provide advice...
cz i dun even know how it feels...
sorry if i'm not that useful...

but i'll still be with u including when u hv bf...
dun try to kick me off that time...
cz i'll leave....
HAHA!!!

lurv ya always....

2010-01-09T01:12:00.000-08:00

being a hard-working blogger now...

NARA...

of cz we went to TODAIJI TEMPLE...

tons of memories...

not to mention...

the deers!!!!

they even hv sign boards for deers!!!

at last...

the temple...

it was built 3 times...

1st generation...

2nd generation...

3rd generation...

spot tht the temples become smaller n smaller???

we saw this funny deer when we r on the way out...

i think it's angry cz no one feed it...

but the stall selling the food close edi...

too bad deer...

so my bro n i plan to take pic with those tamer deers...

^.^

& thts all bout NARA!!!!

CIAOZzzZZZzzZZZ....

2010-01-07T21:07:00.000-08:00

hermmm....

ok...

continue from the previous post...

aft HEIAN SHRINE...

we went to 清水寺(i forgot the eng name)...

pagoda...

so many ppl!!!!

back to the tour bus...

so tired...

but still hv mood 4 cam whoring in the bus!!!

next stop...

RYOANJI TEMPLE...

'zen'....

can u spot 15 rocks???
then u r a ZEN person...

smaller version...

a garden behind the temple...

it'll bloom during cherry blossom season...

so nice...

then...

KINKAKUJI(golden pavillion)...

yup...

it's made up of gold foil attached to the wall...

so shinny!!!!

enlarged version of bonsai...

our dream house!!!!
which will never come true...
haha >.<

next destination...

IMPERIAL PALACE...

my dad so excited...

olden days emperor live in here...
when kyoto was the city of japan...

the roof...

this is all bout kyoto...

next post will be nara...

stay tuned...^.^

2010-01-07T04:15:00.000-08:00

wondering when i start posting bot my jap trip???

i'll start in this post...

i hv sooooo many photos...

we finished 1 memory card every day...

imagine how many photos we hv...

so i'll oni post a few here...

n u can see the others in my FB...

ok...

ST@RT...

part I...

21 & 22 dec 2009...

in KYOTO...

went 2 KLIA early in the morning...

in the taxi...

aft eating our lunch...

my bro wants to be doraemon...
but he's too fat to fly!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!!

reached!!!

spending a whole night on the plane was toturing!!!
n the food SUCKS...

our 1st lunch in kyoto...

OKONOMIYAKI!!!!
it's something like japanese pancake...

me ordering...

scallop...

yummy...

followed a tour next day...

went 2 a few temples n shrine...

some i went be4 last time...

tons of memories...

makes me think of evelyn, yee xuan n the others...

HEIAN SHRINE...

went into a place where we din get 2 go inside last time cz gotta register...

some kind of garden...

they say we should feel like walking in water when walking on the rocks....

erm...

but i dun think so lo!!!

ARRGGGHHH!!!

i'm so tired...

will continue in the next post....

+.+

to be continued....

2009-12-31T11:04:00.000-08:00

still in japan...

wonder when i go back to kl?

2nd jan...

few more days of freedom....

my my...

y is it so fast...

kyoto...

osaka....

iga ueno...

tokyo disneyland...

tokyo disneysea...

tokyo city...

these r the things i dream 4...

n it came true!!!

all thx 2 my dad 4 paying n my mom helping me to convince my dad to go 2 japan...

played with narumi n momoko in sanrio puroland...

plain girls time...

guess both of them will become good frenz from now on...

^.^

din follow my family 2 GINZA 4 the countdown just now...

so damn tired...

was forced 2 go actually...

but i din care...

cz i dun wanna go back 2 m'sia with a fever...

then it'll be terrible in the immigration...

consequences of sleeping at 7pm???

woke up at 1am & had a difficulty 2 sleep again...

so nag my bro to let me use his laptop...

aft he watch his idol-SNSD....

HAPPY NEW YEAR DUDES!!!

kinda weird 2 celebrate an hour be4 my frenz in m'sia...

new year wish list:

1. get my driving license
[i'm kinda scared cz my bro always look down on me when it comes to driving]

2. get good results n TER 4 AUSMAT...
[i dun think so cz it's freaking difficult]

3. get to meet my primary school frenz...
[i miss the kc gathering cz i'm in JAPAN... can we arrange one more???]

4. meet my buddies in kc high more often...
[plz dudes... i miss u ppl a lot!!!]

5. be more sociable
[gotta make new frenz in sunway college... hate talking with strangers]

6. hope i'll still be a good girl...
[no SMOKING... no TEASING... cz sunway college sounds scary from wat my bro told me]

7. get a part time job n earn some money...
[cz my dad is going to retire in jan 2010]

8. pick up dancing again...
[but how??? i'm just as poor as a beginner!!! i dun wanna be laughed by other ppl... i wanna be praised... lost tht feeling long ago...]

9. be happy... no emo-ing....

think thts enough 4 me to do right????

{SIMPLICITY IS ANOTHER FORM OF COMPLEXITY}

2009-12-14T06:48:00.000-08:00

说我是一个重感情的人。。。

赞成吗？？

今天。。。

SPM 终于结束了。。。

虽然知道我的华语考得很烂。。。

但是，

也是预了的吧！！

结束的那一刻。。。

真的感叹时间过得那么快。。。

排考场，贴准考证。。。

就像是昨天所发生的。。。

当然不希望啦。。。

就在 Evelyn 张开双手说了一句。。。

"ZHai li, hug" 。。。

我才发觉。。。

今天。。。

是我在坤成的最后一天。。。

是我最后一天穿着那绣有“坤成”两个字的校服。。。

是我最后一天绑着那令人讨厌，却必须遵守的发髻。。。

是我最后一天穿校鞋走进坤成的大门。。。

对我来说。。。

“坤成” 这两个字与众不同。。。

2年的坤幼。。。

6年的坤小（二）校。。。

5年的坤中。。。

身为一名“坤成人”也有13年了。。。

曾经有人问过我。。。

如果这世界上还有坤成大学。。。

我会不会到哪儿继续学业？？？

我可以很肯定的回答说。。。

“我会的！！一定会！！”

真的。。。

因为我还不舍得不当一名“坤成人”。。。

坤成。。。

见证了我许多事情。。。

从一个什么都不会的小女孩。。。

转变成为现在逐渐成熟的彩丽。。。

从一个没什么朋友的彩丽。。。

变成拥有一班能谈心的朋友。。。

从一个事事跟从的小女孩。。。

变成懂得为对的事情而反抗的女孩。。。

虽然真的很讨厌坤成的行政。。。

尤其是坤中的那堆。。。

但是。。。

就ignore他们吧！！

2009-12-10T02:17:00.000-08:00

no pictures 4 a while...

cz i dunno where i put the cable of my phone...

gotta look 4 it soon...

i actually wanna post bout my b'day...

but no pics...

wateva...

1st...

my SEXXAY-17th b'day...

in the middle of SPM...

between BIO n PHY...

so din study physics tht day...

10 marks gone b'cz of my STUPID n CARELESS mistakes...

GOSH, maybe i should hv studied!!!

i should be 'honoured' as a CARELESS queen...

1st time I celebrate my b'day filled with books...

1st time my mom ordered pizza n kfc to my house...

lots of presant...

*^.^*

wish other december babes happy b'day too!!!

1. Evelyn (12/12)
2. Ashley (24/12)
3. Yee xuan (27/12)

we'll be same age again SOON!!!

2nd...

went to watch NEW MOON yesterday...

at last...

i went out with jia, vwrene n chennie...

better than no one la...

meet yee ching n her gang there...

luckily i booked the tickets way ahead...

cz it's like selling fast although it was 2 hours be4 the show..

*phew*!!!

n yea!!!

I'm officially team JACOB...

he's definitely a BLAST!!!

compared to the EDWARD...

jacob looks more handsome...

n healthier than the PALE PALE EDWARD...

he looks like he just jumped into a box of flour n came to shoot the scene...

no offense to those team EDWARD...

the poor boy...

just couldn't for get this phrase...

"Don't ask me choose, cz it'll always be him" by BELLA...

CRUEL!!!

i admit tht they both are good-looking in the movie..

but...

y can't Robert Pattinson look CLEANER???

he always looks like he just woke up from bed...

he do ruin the whole EDWARD thing...

same 4 Kristen Steward...

no wonder they are a 'pair'...

haha!!!

2009-11-03T05:45:00.000-08:00

maybe some of these words...

should be kicked out from...

my dictionary...

"ZHAI LI's DICTIONARY"...

1. lazy

2. dreaming

3. addiction

4. sleepy

thts all...

anymore suggestions???

I'm still blogging....

14 days to go....

this is B A D...

I'm going crazy....

2009-10-26T02:17:00.000-07:00

the words in my blog are BIG!!!

of cz...

it's specially made 4 SUE!!!

HAHA!!!

it's been a week....

I do miss my friends...

I dun want this to end so fast....

as it shows that the thing tht everyone fear...

SPM...

is nearer... n nearer....

actually i dun hv anything to post lo...

but just to express my bored-ness...

i know i shouldn't be bored now...

BUT...

I JUST COULDN'T STOP IT!!!!

ARGGHHH!!!!

someone punch me n make me faint plz.....

OH!!!

good news is...

after all the nagging n begging for months...

my dad actually decided to bring us to JAPAN after SPM...

HURRAY!!!!

he say i must get good results 1st...

but who knows...

cz SPM results comes out next year...

HAHA!!!

he cannot change anything tht time...

hope MOMOKO n NARUMI will be free by then...

couldn't stop being happy n high after knowing this news...

but still have a hard task to do 1st...

CONCENTRATE!!!!

CONCENTRATE!!!!

CONCENTRATE!!!

cz i believe tht all my buddies are studying now right???

dun wanna faint when i get my results...

so...

SAYONARA dudes...

MATA ASHITA!!!!

2009-10-17T03:02:00.000-07:00

现在的我。。。

希望=失望。。。

失望=痛苦。。。

痛苦=流泪。。。

失望往往是希望的两倍。。

我从没想过。。

会有这种分数出现在我的成绩单。。。

记得我曾想过。。。

“我一定不会让我得到这样的成绩”。。。

“我宁愿死掉”。。。

或许。。

当时的我，没想到会发生。。。

太天真了吧！！！

我明白成绩不是一切。。。

我明白为成绩而哭泣是很愚蠢的举动。。。

我明白正式考试比较重要。。。

我明白我应该把它忘了，再继续努力。。。

这一切我都明白。。。

大家所劝我的东西。。。

我都明白，我都了解。。。

我可以说。。。

我接受了。。。

这是无法改变的事实。。。

我也可以说。。

潜意识里。。

往往有许多不可告人的秘密。。。

我承认我很自私。。。

虽然说时间可冲淡一切。。。

过了这么久。。。

我也是时候忘了吧。。。

只是现在的我。。。

很对不起我的朋友。。。

尤其是SUE。。。

这几天坐在我旁边很难受吧。。。

脾气不太好。。。

常对你发脾气。。。

也常常很没耐心。。。

可能是我比较依赖你。。。

跟你说话没什么顾忌。。。

才会没顾到你的感受。。。

sorry...

i din't mean to hurt you...

可以原谅我的鲁莽吗？？？

也许·
有一天·
我们都要·
学会放弃·

每个人·
都有最难过的时候·

但·
我们不一定·
要用哭泣·
来表示·

～伤心～
～人生～

收到这封短信。。

觉得很贴切。。。

真的是这样吗。。。

因为以泪如水的夜晚。。。

真的好累。。。

到底几时。。

才会真的雨过天晴呢？？

2009-10-03T01:47:00.000-07:00

it seems like a weekday 2 me...

watch tv...

study...

sleep...

dream (most of the time)...

haih...

just simply hope tht my friends n i can go shopping 2gether...

like other ppl...

but it just never happened...

no matter how early we planned...

it won't work...

funny HUH!!!!

bcz ALL my friends r so busy....

at all times...

i'm so bored staying at home...

no one 2 talk to...

no one 2 laugh at...

so depressing...

i think the last time we went out was like...

ERMMMM....

form 2???

O.o

thts kinda long ...

n thts bcz u ppl wanna buy a dress 4 some kind of event???

maybe we can still go out once again be4 we graduate???

dun think it'll happen...

i've lost my hope in this topic...

just as JUANA thought...

it's not good to be too excited...

it'll end up badly....

emo-ing again...

everybody studying...

as i said...

I'm so sick of bO.Oks

2009-09-29T03:53:00.000-07:00

feel like posting something HAPPY & FUNNY!!!

realize i dun hv photos in these few posts???

coz...

my comp is officially FRIED!!!

the so call power supply (i couldn't rmbr the name)was burnt!!!

i actually smell something like metal burning...

then i realize that there are smoke coming out from the cpu...

GOSH@.@

frighten me....

luckily the hard disk is still ok...

photos...files... still there...

phew!!!

but still repairing...

using my bro's laptop 2 post...

my bro will sure kill me!!!

haha!!!

then...

the SR2SCA bbq party in sue chin's house...

i became the chicken wing bbq-er of the day...

of cz...

cecilia....yenchi...lie wah....

and many many ppl were the cook too!!!

so fun...

i had never been so happy for such a long time...

however....

i thought i was quite full during the party...

but when i reached home...

i feel sooooo superb hungry n thirsty...

i drank half a bottle of water within i think half a minute???

then i cooked maggie mee...

haha!!!

my mom thought i was crazy...

maybe photos later...

cz no one posted bout the party...

n everyone put the photos in facebook...

BUT I DUN HV FACEBOOK DUDES...

so pleazzzz post it on ur blog...

so i can hv a chance 2 grab it???

tq sr2scA 4 cheering me up!!!

Trials results sucks...

never thought it'll end this way...

i'm sure that i lost some language alleles...

or i didn't have it be4...

forget bout it...

it's just simply depressing...

2009-09-22T02:55:00.000-07:00

yup...

i'm posting in the lounge in my hotel...

wanna talk bout something boring again...

maybe most of u r almost sick of it edi...

i feel like talking bout something i fear the most...

CHANGES

i have this feeling after meeting my long time din see friend...

she came 2 s'pore...

i was shocked when i first saw her....

this time...

she did change...

a lot...

way more than wat i expected...

if she oni change in her appearance....

then it's ok...

as she is in a totally diff environment...

but even in her stail of doin things...

when we met last year...

i still recognise her...

but this time...

we din hug when we met...

even in the end of the day...

we din hold hands this time too...

we din have that non stop topic goin on too...

most of the time...

we are so silence...

if not...

she will be talking things that i'm not interested...

maybe it's me...

i'm the one that has changed...

i'm the one that is too sensitive...

or i'm just too scared bout changes...

i fear that this may happen to all my friends after graduation...

i fear that things happen to my primary school friends n i will happen again...

i'm really so tired...

i wouldn't have the strength to start it all over again...

i wouldn't have the strength to accept any friends leaving me...

twice it's enough...

really enough...

maybe it's just a process everyone needs to go through...

changes in life...

changes in feeling...

changes in friendship...

i do hope there will be any calculations or theories that can solve this feeling...

or it's just another "no solution" ques again...

i do hope everything can go back when 5 of us just meet...

when 5 of us r still together...

still in kc...

still laughing, playing happily...

i gotta be brave again...

brave to be alone...

brave to face changes...

FRENZ!!!
LETS BE BRAVE TOGETHER...

ps: sorry if i make u ppl bored again...

2009-09-12T12:38:00.000-07:00

Guess everyone is die studying now right...

the stupid sejarah....

y can't they make it more interesting....

almost all is bout Islam(no offence ya)...

but i thought they wanna hv 1 Malaysia!!!

haih...

forget bout it....

I feel exhausted...

the ticking clock...

is just reminding me...

about the time i hv...

i'm really sick of studying....

y can't i just study like when i'm in form 3???

maybe growing up make me think....

think bout my friends after graduation....

think bout where n wat will i do in the future...

or maybe i shouldn't let everyone hv such high hopes on me...

i really wanna stop right here....

stop studying...

stop pushing myself further...

time to let go???

after all...

i know i couldn't do it....

coz everyone is working hard...

trial....

trial....

trial....

i know my post is a lil boring...

but i just couldn't stop grumbling...

this should make me happy!!!

coz this was the momment i played n laughed without any burden...

时间。。。

只会让人感到疲惫。。。

努力了那么久。。。

可以在这一刻停止吗？？？

放弃之前所有的努力。。。

停止所追求的梦想。。。

真的不会后悔吗？？？

或许有一天。。。

我会后悔。。。

无法在中学生活里。。。

做一些疯狂的事。。。

留下一些开心·刻苦铭心的回忆。。。

2009-08-16T01:31:00.000-07:00

yup!!!

I'm lazy...

my blog seems 2 be abandoned...

poor thing....

actually it's not my fault ok....

all b'cz of the 'brilliant' broadband...

ARGGHHH!!!!

actually i've lots of things 2 post...

but since no one asked me 2 update after so long...

i'll break it up 2 many many post...

HAHA!!!

*syok sendiri sahaja*

lets start with.....

my bro's b'day???

we celebrate in a steamboat restaurant...

with his buddies...

dun like it when he goes with his buddies...

cz i'm feel a lil CEMBURU!!!!

he will eventually act as though i'm transparent...

n all his 'girl' friends r super skinny...

BUT!!!

they eat MORE than my bro....

wonder whether their food undergo digestion???

or straight away end up as.... aherm!!!

interesting part...

we sang b'day song 4 my bro in the restaurant....

like wat we do during kids b'day...

n that place was FULL of ppl!!!

DAMN embarrassing if i'm him!!!

a candid shot of him....

fat huh???

he'll sure kill me if he sees my blog (as if he will)...

the next thing...

my classmate are so obsessed wif facebook...

just 2 clarify...

I DUN HV FACEBOOK DOESN'T MEAN I'M OUT OK!!!

i'm not shouting 2 my classmates that ask me 2 join Facebook...

BUT OTHER PPL!!!

when i say "Oh, I din join facebook..."

then they will look at me with a weird feeling...

telling me "how can u dun use facebook nowadays??(u're out)"

actually i really feel like joining...

after seeing them playing so happily...

and sue joined too...

but...

NO!!!NOT NOW!!!

after that brilliant guy's comment...

i'll join facebook when i graduate...

prove that a person that din join facebook is still super NORMAL!!!

guess wat i'm writing in my next post???

n pleazzz feed my chat box...

it's way too lonely...

to be continued...

2009-07-09T05:29:00.000-07:00

my poor hand...

bruise...

bad volleyball...

sad case...

will update the disgusting pic of my hand next post...

2009-07-07T03:34:00.000-07:00

I'm starting my journey...

once again...

1st...

i went 2 red box plus in Gardens wif my family...

celebrate my father's b'day...

lurv my family...

we sang MJ's song too...

n lots of oldies song...

cz my parents oni know how 2 sing...

ahem...

oldies ma...

then there's 1 women standing outside the door...

staring at my bro n i...

cz we singing old song...

so weird...

but dun she thinks that she's a lil rude...?

annoying women...

2nd...

not goin 2 talk bout the exam...

talk bout AFTER exam...

went shopping wif my mom in pavillion...

mostly my mom bought...

cz 2 expensive...

then shopped in Sunway...

they suddenly like 2 go 2 sunway...

bought the white dress in pavillion...

ring(if u r able 2 spot it)n bangle in sunway...

cheap...

i bought a hello kitty alarm clock 2!!!

cute....

but a lil diff 2 wake me up in the morning...

3rd...

anyone of u realise that i went 4 hz5 activity 2day...

so damn scared...

once i reach...

not many ppl hv reaction...

i mean...

almost no one said "hi!!"...

so miserable...

then warm-up...

sat behind...

wanted 2 sit in front so much!!!!

saw the form i ppl stare at us like we came from another planet aka ALIEN!!!

GOSH!!!

no matter wat...

i felt so syok after sweating...

cz so long din sweat so much....

but smelly la...

once i step into my mom's car...

she's like...

"Aiyo,u so smelly la!!!"

~heartbreak~

impress cz Elynn hugged me although i'm sweaty...

2009-06-29T03:17:00.000-07:00

I'm sad...

hopeless...

frustrated....

worst than wat i am....

did everything....

cried....

shouted...

nothing helps...

i just realize....

i'm nothing...

but an ordinary person....

2009-06-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

YIPPY!!!!

I'm free once again (although it won't last long)!!!

it's really toturing this time!!!!

went out be4 getting the results....

later no mood.....

so went 4 movie on sat....

watched Night in the Museum 2....

n u know wat....

my parents slept!!!

gosh...

i'm so miserable...

nobody laugh wif me....

dun care la!!!

talk bout 2day...

went 2 Pavillion to shop wif my mom...

bought my 1st high-heels.....

so happy!!!!

bought lots of stuff 2 fill my wardrobe!!!

including my mom...

she bought those expensive expensive clothings...

scary....

lazy 2 post the pics....

maybe later!!!

ok 4 now...

school 2morrow...

sad case...

2009-06-01T01:58:00.000-07:00

我听说，

“最要好的朋友，不是一见到面，就有说不完的话题。。。

而是，即使没有话题，也不觉得尴尬。。。”

真的吗？？？

朋友们。。。

半年过后，大家也不常见面了。。。

真的不能想象。。。

没有你们陪伴的日子。。。

五年来，

有人转校了。。。

我们一起玩乐，考试一起紧张的情景却无法忘记。。。

转眼间，

就要离开了。。。

希望我们几个不会像小学时的朋友。。。。

毕业后就再也没联系了。。。

永远爱你们哦！！！

ps: bestiezz...

u brighten up my life...

u gave me energy 2 face LIFE...

MUAKX!!!!

2009-05-24T04:09:00.000-07:00

I'm BACK!!!

lots of things 2 post....

1st...

I went 2 watch "breakout" wif my bro n dad...

it was SUPERB...

they were so geng...

n the guy's body is full wif abbs...

but the oni thing i dun like is....

he keep on pulling his shirt up 2 show off...

a lil bit too much...

but overall was really good....

the B-box n breakdance was so awesome n funny 2...

n i really respect the 3 girls performing...

they were so skinny...

but their moves was as strong as the boys...

one of them can even do the 'headturn' move...

WOW!!!

"BREAKOUT ROCKS!!!"

2nd...

i realise there's some ppl dun hv simple manner...

not knowing how 2 respect...

yes...

i'm talking bout my team in the maths society...

i almost cried last thurs after activity...

OK...

lets call them "a n b"

a n b...

good frenz...

non-stop talking!!!

i know 2 of u r good in maths...

but,

if u dun respect me as ur team leader...

at least respect me as a person please...

ask u two 2 do the ques...

look 4 a while then say u dunno how 2 do....

not doin anything...

still dare 2 ask me y our team din get any marks???

other team all working 2gether...

sit down start quarelling wif the boy...

i'm not feeling pity 4 anyone...

it's just that u r way too over the top...

i couldn't even able 2 listen 2 the instructions...

I REALLY FEEL LIKE KILLING U PPL...

dun think i'll be able 2 stay calm this thurs...

3rd...

last saturday was teacher's day...

it was good...

so dun worry JIA n CECELIA!!!

u've done ur very best...

dun be sad when teachers dun appreciate...

we'll be wif u!!!

2009-05-18T01:58:00.000-07:00

today....

our 'brilliant' mr. ROBERT was mad at us...

not talking bout the details...

I think most of u know..

* maybe it's a MONDAY BLUEzzz*

He's like....

i set-up everything 4 all of u early in the morning...

n u ppl din even finished the work i gave u???

u dun hv time anymore...

wed~essay exam...

fri~teacher's day...

not goin 2 care if ur peka affect ur results....

i won't mind if u ppl are mad at me...

*hello???when on earth did we say we're mad at u???*

somehow...

he's stubborn n keep on insisting that we say he've no patience...

"I'm sure u ppl won't be able 2 find a teacher as shui bian as me..."

"so should i continue 2 be shui bian till the end???"

*GOSH!!!*

he's sooOOO DOWN!!!

sue n i was left 2 be speechless....

HAIH...

wat a horrible day.....

2009-05-17T03:58:00.000-07:00

I'm dying 2 watch!!!!!!!!!

BUT Y MUST I BE ABOVE 18 2 WATCH!!!!!

NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!

16 or 17 IS MATURE ENOUGH OKIE!!!!!!!!

I WANNA WATCH!!!!!!!!!!

stupid ticket collector!!!!

HATE U!!!!!

2009-05-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

HEY...

yeap...
i changed my blogskin...

nice???

I oni use bout 15 minutes 2 change!!!
cz i dun hv much time then...
but wanna change SOOO much!!!

since everyone is blogging bout the sports day....

i'll blog bout it too la...

as usual...

sports day is always the useless day 4 me....

go there "menjemur"....

this time it's in Bukit Jalil...

super huge...

but then luckilly we found a shady place...

din really go under the sun...

belated congratz to vwrene n jia...

ran 4 the 400m n 4*400 telematch...

HURRAY!!!!

another congratz is too....

pretty teacher + mr. robert + pretty maths teacher + mr.190...

they won!!!

we shouted like HELL when they're running...

n mr. robert belanja us eat ice-cream leh...

yup...
we're holding oue ice-cream!!!

so FUN!!!

thx evelyn 4 baking a cupcake wif my name!!!

it's superLICIOUS!!!

n special thx 4 jia 4 ur delicious fried mee hon.....

TO SR2SCA:
thx 4 supporting my spagetti!!!

ps:the pics r from jia...tq

another thing is....

SUE N I....

finish our add maths project edi!!!!!!!

HURRAY!!!!!

both of us did it from 5pm till 12 something...

then when i wanna save...

VIRUS!!!!!!!

GOSH!!!!!!!!!

half of the thing GONE!!!!!

buta-buta hv 2 re-type...........

then do till 1am something....

really can die.....

luckilly sue is wif me then...

if not....

i SURELY cry like MAD!!!!

but at least we finished!!!

thx sue!!!

glad 2 hv u as my friend!!!

ps: i know i dun look nice in my school uniform...

2009-05-05T03:16:00.000-07:00

Hey ppls...

If you see this post...

u'll be kinda fortunate...

especially the kc dudes...

cz i found the add maths project ans thingy on9...

n i'd organized it...

i think it's organized la!!!

so if u wan...

tell me...

n be smart 2 change here n there...

if not...

there will be quite a number of ppl hv the same ans...

later teacher ask!!!

hehe ^.^

if u dun wan...

just ignore...

ps: thanks my primary school frenz!!!

2009-05-04T02:49:00.000-07:00

I din update 4 kindda long edi...
cz i like 2 view ppls blog than updating...
too lazy...

1st...

show u some of my baby pic....

yes...
i know the chi project is over 4 quite a long time edi...
forgive me 2 update it now...

2nd...

lurv rubic cube now...
b'cz i could solve the 3*3...
n i've 3
3*3 cube at home!!!
so many...

now heading towards the 4*4 success...
hehe...

p/s:tq cecelia 4 buying me a cube from penang!!!

3rd...

I was packing my file yesterday...
n i found...

really miss both ballet n hz5...

din get the chance 2 meet the twins that day...
regret...
miss all of them a lot...

I know i can't go back anymore...
but i'll still stand outside the hall...
look at them dancing...

all those memories n hapiness...
will be kept in my deepest heart...
4va...

2009-04-15T05:21:00.000-07:00

this time i'm blogging bout something different....

something not bout me!!!

cz i'm super lazy 2 do the permutation n combination thingy....

drum roll pleazzzzz..............

i'm goin 2 introduce bout.................

COFFEE ART!!!!!

I'm most ppl know wat is it right???

i'm not goin 2 introduce some kind of history....

cz it'll be 2 boring...

n u ppl will sure fall asleep!!!

i'm goin 2 introduce ways of doin it!!!!

after all there are oni 2.....
haha!!!

1st....
n the most authentic way of doin it is.....

FREE-POURING....

the coffee making individual is known as barista...

it doesn't use toothpick 2 produce the art work....

the oni thing they use is....

smooth foamed milk
+
"perfect shot" of espresso coffee
+
superb practise hand n wrist
+
tons n tons of experience
=

when a barista gets more experience n expert....

the person should be known as a "latte/coffee artist"

WOW!!!!

i'll show u pic later....

now,
lets continue 2 the 2nd method...

it's much more easier...

it's the "NEEDLE ETCHING"....

artist use toothpick,end of thermometer or a cocktail stirrer...

this process looks more like drawing...

of cz,it's not a pro barista style...

but it can also produce stunning coffee art!!!

it's time 2 show u some amazing coffee art!!!

FREE-POURING...

now 4 the needle etching....

as u can c....

the variety of free-pouring is not that much compared 2 the needle etching...

this is b'cz 2 learn how 2 make these few patterns in free-pouring is not easy!!!

p/s:anyone know a place that sells this in m'sia???
i'm suddenly so addicted 2 it^.^

2009-04-13T08:43:00.000-07:00

i'm goin 2 write bout 3 days in this post...

cz i'm lazy...
hehe!!!

FRI:

maybe some of u realise that sue n i was always sleeping in class on fri....

cz we did the "stupid" chinese newspaper the day be4 from 5pm till 3am....

n we woke up bout 6.45am that morning!!!!
so super late....
2 of us ran 2 the toilet.....
change.....
tie hair....
so rush....

kidda funny....

actually plan 2 camwhore 4 a while but we're 2 busy concentrating on the comp...

i non-stop grumbling throughout the day....

cz our group hv 10 ppls....

at the end...

there's oni 2 or 3 of us doin.....!!!!

NOT EVEN HALF!!!!

EXTREME ANGRY!!!!

dun wanna 2 talk 2 them.....

Yesterday:

went 2 cecelia's house....

yes...
did the annoying newspaper thingy AGAIN!!!!!

still cannot finish....

but luckilly cecelia was so experience wif these kindda things....

then i realise sue n cecelia hv some similarities!!!!

- they get tired easilly
(compared 2 me la)

- they lean on my shoulder when they cannot tahan edi
(maybe my shoulder is kindda comfortable)

- they'll non-stop saying....
"y dun we stop now....."

then i'll be like "continue.....hv faith!!!"
haha!!!

if u dun think it's funny...

just ignore...

it's my post after all!!!

TODAY:
cecelia's turn 2 sleep in class....

cz she did the newspaper till 2 something...

n when she show me the 1st n last page....

i was like....

"WOW!!!!"

"I'm so impressed!!!!"

"LURV YA CECELIA!!!!"

"u're super duper great!!!!"

"It's so...... so......"
i couldn't think of a word 2 describe....

we gotta hand in the newspaper 2 morrow....

guess cecelia is still doin now....

good luck 4 her.....

good luck 4 us 2!!!!

2009-04-02T01:28:00.000-07:00

AT LAST!!!!
1st term is over....
after the whole week of studying....
i'm really mad!!!

this is the 1st time i dun feel that happy after exams...
cz i did tons n tons of mistakes....
in EACH paper....
EVERY single day!!!!

BIO----draw the graph wrongly
----did the wrong essay ques
CHEM---the ans i wrote diff from the ans i thought
SEJ----saw the ques wrongly
MATHS--the stupid flu,fever n headache make me blur...
dun even know how 2 do the simplest ques,press the calculator wrongly
PM-----forget all the nilai when i saw the paper

is it all my papers....?
ya....
it's almost all...

dun hv high hope...
get scolding from my mom n dad....

HAIH!!!!
y is it all happening 2 me!!!
Y am i soooo damn careless...
Y am i sooo super stupid....

thurs hv maths comp summore....
dun feel like goin....
cz i'm so 差...
dun wanna 拖累丽华....

can i???

2009-03-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

真的感觉到压力了！
离考试也只有几天的时间。。。

原本说尽力就好。。。
可是，还是过不了自己那关。。。
这世界上每个人都希望自己是最棒，最聪明的。。。
但不是每个人都能如愿以偿。。。

虽然我一直很相信。。。
有付出，就一定有收获。。。
可是，对于今年所面对的考试。。。
我真的不知该怎么办。。。

一直很想要把自己关在房门里一直读书。。。
却收不住电视机和电脑的诱惑。。。
之后也只剩下“后悔”这两个字了。。。

眼看同班同学都很拼！！！
自己却在这个时候犹豫了。。。
这5年来，我用功读书。。。
终于拼到前十名了。。。

却发觉这几年来没什么好留念。。。
眨眼间，SPM，统一考试即将开始。。。
加油！！！
起不了任何作用。。。
努力！！！
却不知怎么开始。。。

大家都说。。。
现在开始都来得及。。。
可是，大家真的没在假期的时候拼命读书吗？？？
或许有些人真的没有读。。。

但压力。。。
不停的围绕我。。。
请不要把我想得那么好可以吗？？？
希望越大，失望越大。。。
真的不希望会发生在我的身上。。。

我知道压力，读书，考试。。。
成功，失败。。。
是人生的一部分。。。
把他们忘了也是不可能的。。。

可是我还能怎么呢？？？
哭，也哭过了。。。
想敞开胸怀，大声把自己的感受说出来。。。
又怕会添加朋友的麻烦。。。
因为。。。
朋友们都很忙。。。

总觉得明明我就不是很忙。。。
却整天抱怨，不太对。。。
可能是我一时适应不来。。。
没了华族舞-清洁股的忙碌。。。
太过悠闲了吧。。。

现在。。。
只能说。。。
加油！！！
加油！！！

一定要坚信。。。
努力过，就一定比没努力过就放弃来的好。。。

大家一起加油吧！！！
把我们最后一年的中学生涯。。。
风风光光，开开心心地度过吧！！！

2009-03-13T02:51:00.000-07:00

If u dun like hello kitty....
i advice u 2 LEAVE!!!!
cz u'll be sick of this post....

I think everyone knows i'm a big fan of hello kitty...

n MAC has a new collection based on Hello Kitty!!!
It's soooooo cute....
but soooo expensive...
sob sob...

my mother say she wouldn't buy it for me cz it's too expensive...
n i won't affort 2 buy it...

i think i need 2 stop shooping 4 a year 2 buy them....
sob sob...

visit www.maccosmetics.com!!!
HELLO KITTY!!!!!

when hello kitty mild....

meets hello kitty wild...
i know the mild looks better....

it'll end up wif.....
ta da!!!!

MAC Hello Kitty make up set.....

I'm indulged just by looking at these pictures....

They even hv kouture....
I wanna be pampered!!!!
sooooo glam....

Even the accessories make me SHOUT!!!!

more of their hello kitty mild n wild pic....

4 the sweet n innocent....

4 the naughty!!!

did u noticed the kitty???

did u hv enough of kitty yet????
i dun think i do....
but i dun wan u 2 be sick of it....
so this is the last cutie....

p/s: anyone interested 2 buy 1 4 my b'day present???
Dear daddy......
can buy???
4 me????
p l e a s e . . . . .

I'm waiting.....
W/O patience.....